OT - Turning 30 This Weekend.

I'm turning 30 this weekend. I hadn't thought much about it at all really, but then tonight I felt this ping of sadness. It felt like a reminder that life doesn't go on forever, and that at some point soon I better feel settled in to a life lived for the moment.

I always get more difficult feelings as the pain I deal with creeps back in. I think there is an effect as the Tramadol wears off, where its effects of inhibiting serotonin and norepinephrine diminish and there is a major crash in my emotions.

But anyways, today was my 8 week mark since the last dose of Remi, so I'll be Anti-TNF free for the next 8 weeks for a wash-out period, and am hoping to get rid of the pains.

Hey Thoreau- 30 is a great birthday to celebrate. My hope for you is it's old enough to have perspective & appreciate all the good in your life, yet young enough to have plenty of resilience & optimism. As the pains subside, my hunch is you'll feel much more energy to venture out & seek pleasure. Pain brings life to a grinding halt, and we become immersed in problem solving our way to manage UC - it's draining and can be all consuming. I'm confident you are about to begin a new chapter with much less suffering. Here's to an exceptionally joyous year ahead!

Happy birthday! I know a lot of people say that 30 is when you've waded through all the crap and can start living life the way you want. Hoping the pain goes.

I hear 30 is the new 20 these days. :)

Hope the pain disappears!

In the end 30 is just a number, one of many numbers, and it's only significant if you want it to be. I still act like I'm 12 and my DW can confirm it lol. But I digress, happy b-day Thoreau, and here's to hoping this upcoming year will be pain free. Cheers!

Thanks all! Ya... I really get suffering there when the meds wear out and the pains creep back in. Right now I don't feel like that at all since I'm medicated up.

I'm aiming for this to be the point in my life where I choose how I live to a much higher degree than I have in my twenties. Like one of Malaika said, I do feel like I've waded through a tremendous amount of "life" and am ready to ease it all up a bit.

Happy Birthday! I wish I was turning 30. After all, it's really just a number. I remember when I hit 30, I thought it was the end of the world. It seems like time is passing really fast since 30 but I do think I have learned a ton since my 20s. I wouldn't want to be that person again, although I was UC free for a big part of my 20s, and I would give anything for that - and my figure back then... uh, getting older stinks.

30 is a fantastic age! ...hope you have a good one.

Happy Birthday!

Saying goodbye to my 30's in December.

Yeah, not sure about the sad thing. I was thinking about 40 the other day driving to work and pretty much broke down in my car thinking about fishing with my dad. Not sure how strong my mental state is but it's pretty easy to get down if I dwell too long. If I can get focused on my kids it brings me back up pretty quick.