I don't know what to do anymore. I've had colitis for four years. I'm 18 and have beem on prednisone twice, and now have red stretch marks from it all over my back. I'm in remision now, but I cry everytime I look at them. Its gotten to the point that I steam up the shower so I don't have to see my reflection. Every time I see them I am reminded of my flair ups and how a disease has destroyed my body and ruined my llife. I hate it and there's nothing I can do.
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I don't know Gary. Every part of colitis sucks. Flare ups, fear of flare ups, weight loss, pain dietary restrictions (which do still apply). People looking at you like your fragile and being fragile. Having markings all over my body is insult on top of injury. They remind me of flare ups of the past, and they are always there to remind me that I will flare up again. So its not just that I hate the way they look, even though I really really do hate the way they look.
Anyways, before you go thinking I'm vain, no one wants to look like they've been mauled by a wild animal. And for every thousand people that have worse UC than me are a hundred thousand people who are healthy and happy. Those people with worse UC wouldn't ask for stretch marks in exchange for health. They'd ask to never have had UC in the first place. It just sucks is all I'm getting at. No amount of counseling will make my lack of health fair or fun.
Post Edited (Yang1996) : 11/19/2014 3:39:25 PM (GMT-7)