NiceCupOfTea said...
MarsRover said...
As I mentioned earlier, my disease isn't as detremenal for me as it is for others, but I do have a lot of problems still. I still go more than I feel I should, I am always fatigued and have a screwed up sleep cycle (a lot of this has to do with the drugs I am on-Prednisone being the primary offender). Where I am on the cusp the most is that I am 22 years old. I graduated college a month ago and am trying to start my professional career. I am even in the hiring process for a position right now that If I got it, it would be a year of solid training before graduating the academy. A flare up would be devastating and would ultimately result in me either resigning or being laid off (ADA wouldn't protect me given that its a sworn position apparently). My doctors and parents both feel its best I just have this surgery and be done with it if it truly means that UC, the drugs, flare ups, etc. are all behind me for good. I just really do not want to do this surgery and see my quality of life go backwards.
Are you still on pred or not? I can't tell. Because steroid dependency does make a massive difference here - is it the Entyvio or the pred which is controlling your symptoms at this point?
Don't listen to your doctors' promises or other people's experiences on the internet (including mine). Doctors are like trained robots sometimes, I swear. As for other people's experiences, they are completely and utterly irrelevant to yours: 99.9% of people could have the best possible outcome in the world, but what does that matter to you if you have a bad outcome? The only outcome which ultimately matters is
your one.
So forget about
other people and concentrate on you. Are you steroid-dependent? If yes, that's a big indicator for surgery. If no, then you have to look at stuff like your quality of life. You mention fatigue and screwed-up sleep cycles, but loads of people have those problems without having UC. If you are still on pred and it is messing with your sleep, again you need to consider how much Entyvio is really doing for you if you can't get off pred.
You seem terrified of another flare-up. How would j-pouch surgery fit into your year of training? It's a minimum of two surgeries and even if everything goes perfectly, you are still looking at weeks of pain, adjustment and recovery.
I think overall surgery would probably benefit you. The chances are high that UC, and the horrible drugs we take for it, would be gone for good. But you need to be ready for it. It needs to be your decision, not your doctors (unless it's an emergency surgery) or your parents. There are new meds in the pipeline, but do you want to hang around until they are available? Can you hang on until they are available? Personally I feel for you. The decisions we have to make with this disease are unbearable sometimes.I am still on prednisone yes but on a much lower dosage than I was months ago (since January I have tapered from 60 to 10 mg). Last year I started on Humira and we thought that was working. Then when I got down to 10 mg (which is where I am at now) I basically went right into a massive flare up and had other issues that sent me to the hospital. Doctors in essence said that humira did literally nothing for me. Because I am on 10 mg with some side effects (though not nearly as bad as last time), I believe the entyvio is at least helping. That being said, I cannot tell if it is truly the prednisone or the entyvio, or maybe a combination of both that is actually helping me. My GI told me there is no way to tell unless I just cut out prednisone fully and see how I react (which he has advised against for obvious reasons). According to whatever he saw during my last scope, he feels that while entyvio may have helped, I probably won't see more improvement from where I am now without surgery.
In re the second portion, that is really truly where I am at crossroads wise. My family and my doctors all want me to get the surgery, and surgery probably is the best bet overall. Especially if I can get it out of the way and then by like, October or I am patched up and ready to move on with the rest of my life. The thing that truly sucks is if I move forward with surgery, I will more than likely have to withdraw my application and start over later. I couldn't start the job then take time out for the second surgery+recovery time. But honestly at this point, there are other places to work too if it really doesn't go over well. Thankfully the hiring manager for the city was my fellow classmate in my cohort, so that should help me out at least a little bit.
blksteeda thank you for sharing your thread/blog. I hope you bounce back fully from your pouchitis
I've never had an upper endoscopy, at least I do not think I have.