1hopeful1 said...
The work environment is pretty gloom and I dread coming to work here.. I would love to get a vacation but there's so few people that work here it is almost necessary that im here every day!
My flare is not getting any better despite the meds and i can feel my stomach rumble when i start to over work myself and worry.
I feel like I stuck in a rut and quality of life for me is getting so bad with this flare. I just want to enjoy my life and be able to spend more time with my son as a healthy person.
Sorry for the vent you guys but I just feel like if I talk about this with anyone else, they dont really understand.
It doesn't sound like your issue is stress, it sounds like it might be depression and anxiety caused by a change in your daily circumstances. You went from college, where I am sure you were more active, going from class to class, being outside, surrounded by people, to a desk in a sparsely populated sad office. Add in the UC, and you have a mess.
I'd consider talking to a therapist to help you work out the change to your life, but also some next steps. This might not be the right type of environment for you, which is fine. I've been there -- the work was fine, but the environment was not good for my mental health. In the meantime, though, LEAVE THE OFFICE EVERY CHANCE YOU GET. Take your breaks outside and go for a walk. Eat lunch outside of the office. The sun & the fresh air will help a lot, so will the change of scenery. Spruce up your desk with things that make you happy. Try hard to engage with your coworkers (see who wants to get lunch).