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Posted 6/7/2018 9:55 PM (GMT 0)
Another whiny post from me.

I’ve always had some issues with my body and low self esteem, but unfortunately I’m now at an all time low. It’s probably the steroids(currently budesonide) and constant exhaustion but I look in the mirror and do not even recognize myself. I’ve always had chubby cheeks and they’re definitely chubbier but not quite moon face. I’ve gained a little weight (<5) which is enough for me to notice but no one else either notices or will admit that I have, and nothing fits properly. Then there’s the acne scarring and red patches courtesy of prednisone. The cherry on top is the sadness in my eyes and the worsening wrinkles. The lines and crows feet are way too prominent for someone who isn’t even 30 yet!

Woe is me, whining over!
Posted 6/7/2018 11:06 PM (GMT 0)
You sound like me before surgery. it's temporary - don't worry. You will get back to your old self in time. You just need to find the right treatment, and you will lose the few pounds, and you will put UC behind you!
Posted 6/8/2018 1:05 AM (GMT 0)
Blame the pred and know it's only temporary. UC flares make dramatic changes to our bodies.
Posted 6/12/2018 4:50 AM (GMT 0)
I feel for you. I don't know if this helps or not, but one time when I was doing really terrible and was very sick, I scheduled an appointment at a salon and got my hair done. Just that one thing pulled me out of it for a week, it made me feel normal. Try to do something for yourself once a week, watch a movie, go out for coffee (if you're up to it) with someone who knows the real you and who you don't need to look pulled together for. I think trying to have one normal thing you do once a week helps a lot, and having people who understand and can be with you also does wonders. I'm not saying it will fix it, but it did help me when I was miserable. Wish I could help more.
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