I was diagnosed with ulcerative colitis about
2 1/2 years ago. I think I have had it for about
5 years though. My primary care physician thought it was IBS and kept referring me to a specialist but I didn't go until a couple of year later. After I was diagnosed, I still didn't understand the seriousness of the disease and as soon as I felt better, stopped taking my medication and going to follow up appointments. I had some minor flare ups and would go back and get on medication until I felt better and then stop again. This last flare up started about
a month ago so I went back, got my medication and have another colonoscopy scheduled tomorrow which I am terrified of. Anyway, now that I am starting to learn that this is a serious disease, I have so many questions and was hoping that someone may be able to answer them for me. This has by far been the worst flare up I've ever had. The worst part is the abdominal pain...is this normal? I can't live like this! I have a 3 year old daughter to take care of. I'm afraid that I'm going find out I'm dying of colon cancer at my colonoscopy tomorrow. The whole thought of this disease has me really depressed and worn out not to mention terrified. How long is the longest someone has been in remission for? Can remission last years? When I'm in remission, I feel fine and that's without medication. I've had remissions last for 9 mos and longer which is why I think I didn't realize how serious this is. I just want someone to tell me that my life is not over and that I can still live like a normal person. This whole situation has me really depressed. Also, do you believe that stress plays a factor in flare ups or the disease itself. As soon as I get stressed or something traumatic happens, I find myself having to go to the bathroom and lately I have been under a lot of stress with going through a separation, etc. One more question, I have really bad lower back pain..is this back pain or is this my kidneys? And is it normal...should I be concerned. Sorry to be so long winded but I just found this website and hope that it will help me understand my disease a little better so any information will be helpful. Thank you