I need some comfort

Everything you described is "normal" feelings given your circumstances. Pretty much everyone on this board can share similar stories with you and more importantly tell you that life goes on.

If you are SERIOUSLY thinking of harming yourself please go talk to your school counseling resource etc.

The current college environment you are in makes things tough on a new uc diagnosis. You will make it through this and likely be a stronger, wiser and empathetic person because of it. Your life is not over, you just are opening the door to some new experiences that have you freaked out. My toughest time with all of this was the initial diagnosis and working to control the uc. It gets better or easier. It has for me.

Welcome to HealingWell Strawberriesyum! I'm sorry you are feeling so poorly right now, and yes, it's very hard to come to grips with being diagnosed with this illness. But, with a good GI doctor and the right meds, many have been able to achieve remission and go on living life. We come to this forum because not many people do understand this illness...and we are free to talk about most anything here and everyone is very supportive and understanding. Please don't hesitate to ask questions or even vent; or even post the good days you are having. We are all in this together so don't feel alone. I know going through the college days and having this are rough, but there are quite a few younger folks that are in your same position, and I'm sure they would be happy to chime in to tell you about their experiences and how they deal with certain things.

And one more thing to add; prednisone can sometimes make you feel a little more emotional than normal so if you are feeling depressed, you might want to seek counseling as UCDude mentioned. This is a tough thing to deal with no doubt, and we've all been in your shoes at one time or another so we know how you are feeling. Take care, and again...welcome!

I'm guessing that you got an extra bad sample of what flares are like since you had c-diff with it. I hope you can get on the right meds and not have another flare for a really long time, but if you do have a flare sometime in the future, I'm guessing it wouldn't be quite the same since you probably wouldn't have c-diff with it.
If the insomnia is really bad you could always try taking a supplement (as long as it is safe to take with your meds) or a Rx to help with the sleep issues while you are on Pred.
I hope you are feeling better soon and I'm glad you were able to get back to school after this episode.
If possible, try treating yourself to a little gift, a walk at a park where the leaves are turning colors, a movie with a friend, or whatever would perk you up a little!
Jen

So sorry you are sad. You will learn to manage it (advice on this site will help!) and once you are through this time of healing you should be able to get out and do lots more, maybe everything! (I play golf which would seem kind of crazy sport for someone with UC). Consider it a time of peace for yourself.

Yeah, prednisone will keep you from sleeping well. But you might not be feeling tired, is that right? Just bored in the night! I get lots of stuff done around the house when I'm on it.

Welcome to the forum Strawberriesyum. I know exactly what you are going through. I was diagnosed with UC my junior year in high school and that was really tough on me because everyone thought I was making up symptoms to get out of doing things. I too felt very alone when most of my friends turned their backs on me. It really is a hard thing to go through when you are first diagnosed, because you never know who you can turn to for help. I had this disease for 8 1/2 years before I was able to find something to help me. The doctors I went to gave me just about every medicine out there and they only worked for me for about 3 to 6 months before I would have another flare. I recently had surgery and now I feel so much better. It stopped the bleeding and I can eat the foods and drink all the drinks that made me have flare-ups.
Now, the medicine can work for some people. I just happened to have a worse case, and the medicine couldn't control it. I was very scared for a while about having the surgery, but I needed to do something.
Your best bet is to talk to your GI about every possibility out there and get a good idea about what can be done. Just keep a open mind and remember that it WILL get better. That's what seemed to really help me. As for the Prednisone...... Try to find something to keep your mind off stressful sistuations, Prednisone seems to intensify your reaction to things that would normally not upset.
Good luck with everything and just be as optimistic as possible.