The more I read the more I wonder why I'm even bothering with all of these medications, diets, pro-biotics, etc... Is surgery inevitable? I refuse to take prednisone, so in my case it probably is inevitable. I'm sitting here stressing right now because I'm planning on going on the MS walk tomorrow in Manhattan and all I can think of is how I'm going to make it without crapping my pants - which happened twice last week! This is not living!! I achieved 3 months of remission in a year. I have one kidney and I'm forced to take medications that may have an adverse effect on that one kidney. I've also had cancer which kind of makes me very leery because now cancer knows where to find me. Sometimes I feel like I'm just passing time until the inevitable. Does anyone else feel this way?
I have a doctor's appointment this week and I really want to sit down and discuss my "realistic" options. I feel like I'm chasing some sort of impossible dream. I just don't see how there is any possibility of living a normal life with this disease. I'll tell you, surgery is starting to look less and less scary.
Sorry, just needed to vent!!