Letting Go

I have been sick with disease for so long that even though I have reached remission for about a year now, I am constantly worrying about it coming back.  I worry so much about it, I don't even think I am enjoying my remission.  I catch myself looking for problems.  I guess it is to be expected since I don't even know what normal bowel movements are and am just finding out.  Everytime I go to that bathroom more than one time a day I start freaking out.  Hope I get over it before it really comes back. 

Does anyone else think like this?

Yes... I have been in remission for just over 3 years now and the freaking out/stress does lessen as time goes on. I am still vigilant and look in the toilet after every bowel movement but usually it's just a casual glance, not closely scrutinizing it. My opinion is you don't want to be living in fear, but being vigilant is good. You'll find a balance.

I completely understand. For years I was the optimist. I always tried to come up with an excuse of why I was feeling bad (something I ate, drank, etc) but then low and behold a day or two after feeling crappy blood would be in the toliet. The lurking/striking sum it up perfect. It is so true. No one can possibly understand this disease unless you have it.

Letting go of what exactly? I think just accept that it's what you have, that you are of the mindset to be able to know and understand what it is, how to treat it, and you have support at your fingertips to ask questions here or to call the doc.

Experience is the teacher...unfortunately.
It's almost guaranteed we will all flare, but we do have control of when we intervene....

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