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Posted 8/17/2012 3:04 PM (GMT 0)
And I was doing so well.

I got in to the office today at 6 am to take a conference call. about halfway to work I started to worry that I wasn't going to make it, and then I would stop and talk myself down and squeeze and all my tricks. I knew it was going to be a close call but I was fine ("fine", ha, right) until I got into the stall and then I just couldn't hold it.

I threw away my panties, wrapped in a plastic bag so they won't stink up the bathroom. I washed off the waistband of my jeans where poop had gotten on them. And I stood in the women's bathroom at my office naked from the waist down, washing my backside to make sure all the smeared poop was off me.

I was a minute late joining the call, even though I had arrived in time to theoretically sign on to my computer and get a bottle of water.

I feel so humiliated. I can only attribute this to two things: First, the kitchen renovation stuff is dragging on and on and I finally had a showdown with my landlord yesterday, after his workers entered my apartment without notice and changed the light fixtures in the kitchen, which I was never informed about. I think it's all handled now, but I was in a fury for several days, and you know that's never good. Second, I think my body just expects to poop right around 6 am, with little or no warning, and it's stubborn like that. Some habits are hard to break.

And to think that just this morning I was thinking that I might be able to go back to my morning workouts. :-(
Posted 8/17/2012 3:11 PM (GMT 0)
I was in the same situation a few months ago and I wanted to reply to say you aren't alone. 

Luckily my bosses let me start work an hour later each day as my body seemed to find 6am, and 7.15 (just as I needed to leave for work) a perfect time to go. 

And all my accidents have been while walking home where it's easier for your tears to turn into hysterical fits of laughter in the "oh my god this is so gross I have to laugh" way.

Anyway, you aint alone. and hope you get better soon... that first day where you realise it really is just trapped wind is an amazing moment. x

Posted 8/17/2012 3:21 PM (GMT 0)
thanks so much. The vast majority of my accidents have taken place in my own bathroom at home, and I have to be thankful for that.

I feel like it was such a short time ago that I was telling my boyfriend, with some horror and disbelief, that from what I was hearing, having accidents was a question of "when", not "if." Now here I am.

This 6 am call was an unusual situation. Hopefully, the stars won't align in this same way again. :-(
Posted 8/17/2012 3:44 PM (GMT 0)
I use a potent dose of immodium to rearrange my body's schedule for when it has to go. I used to leave for work at 6:30 AM every day. I would take 3 immodiums ~1 hour before waking up so my gut starts to slow down. It's worked for me for years. I still have those days, though I think I can hold it longer now than I used to (the anxiety is still there).
Posted 8/17/2012 3:47 PM (GMT 0)
I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I had several accidents where I couldn't make it. Thankfully there were mostly at home.

I can really recommend those Depends. They are disposable underwear. They were a lifesaver to me.

All the best for you.
Posted 8/17/2012 5:06 PM (GMT 0)
That sucks for sure.

I have noticed that it seems harder to hold things in when 2ft form the toilet than 50ft. Someone on an earlier thread a while back suggested the idea of "muscle memory" might be involved the this proximity to toilet effect.

Still sucks.
Posted 8/17/2012 5:11 PM (GMT 0)
I'm sorry you had to go through this.
Posted 8/17/2012 6:00 PM (GMT 0)
DB, you may be remembering a thread I made in about December, in which I was asking whether there was a mental aspect to the fact that I could hold it until I got in the door of my bathroom and then all heck broke loose. Someone in that thread posted a link to a muscle memory article. :-(
Posted 8/17/2012 6:09 PM (GMT 0)
Oh no....Maybe you can start to encourage your bms before you go to work, after or before you eat breakfast?

I'm not surprised that with all that's going on causing your daily functioning to be out of whack...your UC is still having hissy fits.

ARe you still on the cort enemas and the supps?

For this time period, consider to double the dosage of the UFCC.

And, maybe a half dosage of imodium will at least get you to work if you can't have your bm before you leave home.

q
Posted 8/17/2012 6:21 PM (GMT 0)
I think that if I'm going to start working out in the mornings again, I'll need to start getting up at the same time I arose today to get my body moving in time to leave the apartment without fear. On my normal schedule, I sometimes feel a little rushed as I go up in the elevator, but it's almost never anywhere NEAR what it was like today. :-(

I've been cutting down on the enemas to every other night, and also -- possibly a contributing factor -- I'm tapering the prednisone. I got down to 10 mg with no problems, and then moved down to 5 and immediately got bleeding and increased frequency, so I went up to 15 for a few days and am now on 10 again, so my body might be cranky over that...
Posted 8/17/2012 6:29 PM (GMT 0)
I echo the Depends recommendation. I would be trapped at home without Poise pads for my bladder incontinence and Depends for UC bowel incontinence. I truly empathize with janey47. It ain't no fun. Depends has a new panty that is remarkably like regular panties.

Hang in there. As my health continues to improve I can really say it does get better.
Posted 8/17/2012 6:35 PM (GMT 0)
Janey...try alternating your dosage of pred.
Definitely stay on the enemas until you're off the pred...(is it mesalamine you're on?).

Do the taper alternating....15,15,15...10,15,10,15...10,10,10...5,10,5,...
it's another way to help you lower without having huge setbacks. Plus it's a way to help kickstart your adranal glands to start producing the cortisol to compensate....at least, in theory.
q
Posted 8/17/2012 6:43 PM (GMT 0)
Bummer about the accident.

And ditto quincy to stay on the enemas nightly until you're completely off pred and doing well. I stayed on nightly enemas for quite a while after I was completely off pred. I was too scared to do otherwise!
Posted 8/17/2012 6:49 PM (GMT 0)
Hey, Quincy, have you heard of demarin? It's supposed to work for adrenal support. I started taking it a few weeks ago and I feel like it has really helped, despite this set back.

I've learned to do the alternating taper but so far I haven't needed it until I get below 10. I just got too happy with how quickly my body was snapping back after a severe but short flare. I'm on cortisone enemas, the mesalamine ones have never helped me and have only created their own set of problems. But I'll definitely get back on them nightly until I'm sure I'm in the clear.

Thanks to all. You're the only people I can come to with this tale of woe, which is like the biggest thing on my mind this morning. Two of the people I work with most closely are out of the office today and calling me constantly, and whenever they say, "How's the day going?" I think "UGH, what would YOU do if you were in MY position? You'd go HOME, THAT's what you would do!" and sweetly say, "it's going great -- how's yours?"
Posted 8/17/2012 6:52 PM (GMT 0)
Here's some happier news, though. My cats broke my beautiful vintage torchiere lampshade by jumping onto it from the bookcases (that's not the good news), but I was able to find a pretty replacement for only about $100, including shipping, here's a picture. I look at it periodically to soothe myself LOL

http://torchiereshades.com/catalog/glt230o.jpg
Posted 8/17/2012 7:05 PM (GMT 0)

janey47 said...
Here's some happier news, though. My cats broke my beautiful vintage torchiere lampshade by jumping onto it from the bookcases (that's not the good news), but I was able to find a pretty replacement for only about $100, including shipping, here's a picture. I look at it periodically to soothe myself LOL

http://torchiereshades.com/catalog/glt230o.jpg


Always looking for something which makes you happy. I like that attitude.
Posted 8/17/2012 8:49 PM (GMT 0)
Just posting another "you are not alone" - I had a work accident about a month ago. Primarily blood and mucous - mostly contained to the first layer. I was on a conference call and didn't want to jump in and be rude and dismiss myself. I should have known better. Started walking to the bathroom and it broke lose! Tossed my panties. I have extra clothing in my car, but this happened to be a day that I had to borrow a car as mine was in the shop. I had to drive home to get a change of items :(.

Sorry that you (and everyone) has to deal with this :(.
Posted 8/18/2012 8:05 AM (GMT 0)
Janey...I don't think it matters how high you are at the pred..if you're having any setbacks, it's an accepted taper.

I've not heard of Drenamin...found this regarding ingredients. When did you start taking it?

Proprietary Blend: 717 mg PMG™ extract, choline bitartrate, oat flour, dried buckwheat (leaf) juice, buckwheat (seed), alfalfa flour, magnesium citrate, mushroom, bovine bone, allantoin, bovine brain, carrot (root), soy bean lecithin, veal bone meal, peanut (bran), and mixed tocopherols. Other Ingredients: Honey, calcium lactate, cellulose, water, niacinamide, potassium para-aminobenzoate, ascorbic acid, calcium stearate, riboflavin, and pyridoxine hydrochloride

Hope you feel better soon.
q
Posted 8/18/2012 10:40 AM (GMT 0)
Just wanted to add that you are not alone and imnso sorry that happened to you....

Thankfully I have a bathroom right near my office at work...if I didn't I don't know how I would function...

Also, I train for races a few times a year ....I usually have to get up at 4:30 to make sure things are done before I either run outside or whatever I'm doing ... Now even when I'm not training my body is used to very early bathroom trips...

I'm just used to it now and makes life a lot less stressful..


Good luck and hope the stress level decreases for you....
Posted 8/18/2012 7:05 PM (GMT 0)
Yesterday I decided to venture out to take my son school shopping, no sooner did we pull in the parking lot and I had a major accident, in my depends, down my legs, on my feet, sandals and car seat and carpet. Thank God I had wipes, a towel and change of clothes. I have had lots of a accidents but none like that! Just had a colonoscopy and showed universal uc, moderate hemroids, and dr put me on bentyl, apriso, and rowasa enemas. I've had uc gor over 20 years now and am wondering if I should have the surgery, but my gastro says no because it would be iliostomy with no chance of reversal if I didn't like it. Any advice would be most appreciated. I'm pretty much a prisoner to my home due to accidents.
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