Today I had my first accident

After being diagnosed with colitis for about a year, today I had my first accident. (Actually, my first public accident. My first accident happened while I was sleeping.)

Basically, I went with my friend who doesn't know about my colitis to a Japanese restaurant. While we were in the restaurant I suddenly had the urge to go. It was really bad, I knew if I stood up I would go right then and there. The urge passed away after a few seconds and on my way to the bathroom it suddenly came back, and I didn't make it in time.

There wasn't actually any stool, I just passed gas and a lot of blood and mucus. But there was still so much I didn't know what to do with it. So I just wrapped my soiled underwear in toilet paper and disposed of it. I feel ashamed of what I did, but at the time I felt like going commando was the only option I had and there was no hope of me leaving the restaurant then as I would have to bus home.

Sorry if this is too personal for me to post, but I felt really humiliated and I needed to vent.

I can understand why you feel bad, but it is def. NOT your fault. We didn't ask for this darn disease and wish they would come up w/ a *!?** cure already (although I won't hold my breath w/ that). So sorry that it happened to you.

garylouisville said...
Been there done that. You've got a lot to go to catch up to me but I'm not encouraging you to try. There are certain times where I have decided to wear depends just in case.

I didn't really anticipate anything since I've been feeling really good for the past two weeks, but I guess you can never be too careful. From now on I'm always bringing a spare pair of underwear.

Welcome to the club. All the cool kids are having accidents these days.

maroonbanjo said...
about 2 weeks ago I had my first accident. It was at work. The urge came. I quickly went to the bathroom but the cleaner was busy cleaning it. Minor panic mode began as I sped to the elevator for a bathroom on another floor. There were 2 stalls. One was occupied, and the other toilet paperless. The urgency subsided a little, and in one of my most idiotic moment ever, I decided to go back to the elevator to the other floor and tell the cleaner I really needed to use the bathroom. I didn't even get to the elevator before the urge came again. This time I knew it was serious and I had maybe 5 seconds. I got to the bathroom door (not the stall) and it just started coming out. I had to throw away my underwear. No one witnessed it, but still I was humiliated. I was defeated :(

Those of you wearing a diaper, does it appear very obvious? I don't know how important this detail is but I am a skinny male.

Ugh, the worst is when the urge subsides and you think you're safe.

I am so sorry this happened, I know it's just a matter of time until I get to join the elite group of of pants poopers! ;-). Be here for me too k?

Happens to everyone and really sorry to hear it. I hope you get into a wonderful long lasting solid remission soon, but in the meantime don't be embarrassed to try wearing Depends or a pad... I wore Depends for about two months, I felt a little demoralized and I couldn't wear skintight pants, but no one outside my family knew and it kept me from ruining any more clothing.

Maroon, i am a skinny girl and Depends make me look like i have an actual butt. So if you have a normal sized butt, it will just add a little extra padding.

Well before I had my first accident, I had learned here that for most of us, it's not a question of "if" but a question of "when". So far I have had no witnesses and only two outside of my home (not counting minor spillage or squish) .

I consider it a victory and not a cause for shame that you were able to rid yourself of your panties. Been there, done that. Consider what your options were -- where were you going to rinse them out -- in the toilet of a public restroom? In their sink? Yuck. Neither is a good option. People wrap up soiled diapers and toss them. This is the same thing.

Don't feel defeated if you can possibly manage it. We're all here for you. As a friend of mine said when I told him about an accident I had, consider it a little dirt on a classic American muscle car.

You've inspired me to pack an emergency kit for the office. I've only had accidents at home, but I know it is just a matter of time. They're moving our department further from the restrooms next month, so I'd better get ready.

A public accident is pretty much inevitable with uc, I've had one in a supermarket, several at work, and one while driving. It is often much worse mentally then it is in reality (Likely only a tiny bit came out, nobody noticed, and it didn't come through your clothing). Overconfidence can often be the cause of some of the accidents, as we feel we've had a good streak lately (feeling better), and perhaps it can be 'held in' a little longer. Sadly, our days of knowing we can 'hold it longer' have long since past, since we acquired uc. Best you can do is cleanup, laugh it off, and move on with your day -- it is just part of this disease and not your fault. First, having an emergency kit along with you is a great idea, and secondly, if you feel the early signs of the urge to go to the bathroom coming on, don't try to wait a few extra minutes, just get to the toilet and get it out ASAP. As I've been within reach of the bathroom doorknob and had an accident a couple times, and I had done just that (send one more email beforehand, finished one more chore before heading to the bathroom etc, and it bit me).

Just try and have a sense of humor about it all, it will do you a lot of good.

Oh yes accidents. I am usually pretty good at holding it for a fair while until I find a restroom. These accidents are usually just overconfidence or random BAM can't hold it type. Sucks but ti happens to all of us.

been there done that....i have had full on, cleared my entire colon out in my pants on multiple occasions, especially when driving.....sucks, but what are you going to do?
I even successfully crapped in a bag while driving, and wiped...i was proud of that