I have become much less of a worry wort as a see how much it impacts my disease. While in remission, if I have a stressful situation it will cause me to have an extra soft or liquid BM almost every time and take another day to recover fully to normal. I usually go twice or maybe three times, and will go a third if under stress. Here are three very recent stories I think are interesting, if you are so inclined, the last one is kind of funny:
Had already been twice and knew I was done for the day. Had an argument with my fiancee and got angry, went a third time at like 11:00 that night (unheard of), all liquid, soft the next day then back to normal.
She was gone to eastern Europe for two weeks in June-July. I was ready to see her the day she had gotten back and had been counting down the hours the last two days. Even tho I was off work and relaxing at home July fourth weekend my BM's were terrible and I firmly believe it was the constant focus on that fixed point, even tho it would be a happy time I was anxious about
the last two days. I was focused on that future point in time that her plane would land. Was back to normal a few days later
Last and best: There is a church in front of her house cops use for a traffic stop. Behind her house is a field that cops wait in to catch folks who see the stop and have drugs, beer, or no license and try to turn around in the field. I always park in that field because she has dogs that like to jump on my car. I was bringing her home about
10:30 one night, had two great BM's and was 100% done for the day in any normal scenario. I had just gotten my concealed carry and had a firearm in the car. I wanted to see what would happen if I took her home as normal, going in the field suspiciously since I saw the troopers at the church and wondered what he would say about
my gun. Nothing nefarious, just curious. I was pretty 'stoked' and my heart was racing as the cop flew into the field and pinned my car between his car and the trees. She got out of the car to go inside, I don't like answering questions so when he asked why I didn't park in the driveway instead of a field I said that's just what I do. He'd already told her to go inside but she started explaining about
the dogs and he yelled GO INSIDE MA'AM! I must have been wired or stoked or whatever, I forgot to tell him about
my gun and show him my permit, she reminded me from outside, he yelled at her to go inside again. He was very nice, I was very nice, I told him she lived there, etc. No biggie. He found out I've never done anything but one speeding ticket, it was nothing to even mention again. My brain was wired and anxious for anything though, I went home (10 minute drive) and had a liquid BM at like 11PM that night. Soft BM's Saturday and normal Sunday.
I've started listening to ASMR videos on Youtube. Some of them are so weird(!) but they are soooo relaxing.
Post Edited (Levi) : 9/8/2013 6:34:29 PM (GMT-6)