OT - I'm scared

Over the years I've always had a super fast metabolism. I'm 5'6" and I never weighed over 115 - 120lbs (unless I was pregnant). So in the past year and a half I gained close to 20lbs. I tried eating more, I tried eating less, I tried exercising more but to no avail.

3 months ago at a routine GI appt my doc said my thyroid looks swollen so I had the blood test and seen my primary. She said everything looked good. So I put it out of my mind.

Until I gained 10 more pounds and the Gi found blood in my urine (if you seen my previous post-I'm not too concerned about that because I had a past experience with it). So I seen a different primary this time and she sent me for an ultrasound of my thyroid. I had that done today. When the tech was doing the one side I could see the screen and I seen a dark nodule.

Of course she wouldn't say anything because she was only the tech. But I HATE the waiting game!

I am on the verge of tears here because I don't know what is going on. I'm tired all the time, I feel bone cold sometimes, I feel so volatile with my emotions (my poor hubby!) and than of course the weight gain. Speaking of emotions....I almost never cry. I've been a weepy mess lately and I don't know why!

So I'm hoping that the thyroid ultrasound shows nothing and that I'm just entering an early menopause because honestly, I don't know how much more I can handle.

With my luck, it's just not nothing lol. I'm trying to stay calm but my mind is in overdrive.

Hey, Red...
I have autoimmune thyroiditis and celiac IN ADDITION to UC.
For me personally, the thyroid malfunction is much MUCH easier to handle than UC.
I hope it's a benign condition and that you receive good news.

sending good thoughts

Spirituality, religion, awareness, are things I rely on when things seem impossible. Yesterday I printed out the original size of Van Eyck's Madonna in the Church. It's really only about a foot by 6 inches but it is a masterpiece!

When things seem impossible I dive into my love of baroque music and Renaissance art. I have to have another "wise" outlet, otherwise things are just too weird and too impossible.

John

99% of the things we worry about never happen, but it sucks. It does sound like you are hormonal! Feel better!!

Red, i'm sorry to hear that you're going through a tough time. I hope the nodule turns out to be nothing. Have you asked your doctor about the prescriptions you are taking? I don't know Remicade personally, but from what I do know is that it sounds strong, and like any drug, able to alter the body. I don't believe that a lot of things just happen to you or anyone else, I think some of the drugs play a large role in tipping the ice berg.

Thanks all...it really means a lot to me to have your kind words.

I constantly feel like I'm a see-saw, like one day I'm going to tip over the edge both physically and mentally - sort of like a ticking time bomb.

I've had sooo many things happen over the years that it's a struggle to remain positive and optimistic. I usually dust myself off and begin again but it's wearing on me. So if this thing with my thyroid turns out to be something, I'm sure I will find a way to remain positive; because that is just who I am. But every once in a while I need that pity party ya know?

I've had my blood checked for everything so it's just waiting game right now....which is the hardest.

As for the Remi, I've no clue if this is causing these issues as of now. But honestly, if my thyroid is deciding to malfunction on me, I would rather my UC be in remission than deal with consequences.

Sherry, my thyroid problems pre-dated my UC by several years. Both Grave's disease (hyperthyroidism) and Hashimoto's thyroiditis (hypothyroidism) are autoimmune conditions, and we know that people who have one AI are much more likely to have others also. There have never been any reports of thyroid issues being caused by Remi or any of the other UC drugs.

I know that my complete list of issues looks a lot like yours, and I know what you mean by being overwhelmed. When my doc told me I had developed type II diabetes induced by steroids, I completely lost it in her office. Somehow we do pull our socks up, put on our big girl panties and soldier on, but it gets exhausting, doesn't it?

Sorry you have one more thing to contend with. ((Hugs))

don't even know what a thigh roid is, but if it's related to a butt roid. :-(

hope everything turns out ok -

and a party is good even if it's a pity

Stressing is normal, and Sherry, you really haven't had a break long enough for extended relief since knowing you on HW. Not all have been regarding your health, however....it all wears on the psyche intensively.

You're always optimistic and "positive", but that doesn't mean that realistic or worried cannot enter than realm. It doesn't cancel out anything.

I have a nodule on my thyroid as well....a few ultrasounds has revealed no changes, so until something changes, it's just there.

All you can do, unfortunately, is nail-bitingly wait for the results....and go from there with a plan.

Since you are gaining weight and it's very sudden and fast, it does sound hormonal. The why has to be found, and you're in that process now.
I hope this is a simple issue that can be dealt without any impact on UC med changes.

Huge hugs to you...
qxx

Thanks y'all :)

Pity party is over. I'm in a better state of mind today. I still don't know the results but I should know by tomorrow or Friday.

Guess I missed the party! ;)

Glad to read you have your chin up again. You always spring back, I really admire that. I have no words of wisdom, but just wanted to add my support. And I'm wishing for the best results possible.