I just had to drop out of a UC Study

You shouldn't feel terrible.

I was going to enroll in a clinical trial last year, but ultimately decided not to commit.

This was after continuous exchanges with the scientists running the trial and making them believe I was going to enroll.

I was flaring, desperate and wanted to take anything to get into remission.

It required a pre-screening colonoscopy and another one after completion. No way was I going to subject myself to those risks for some experimental drug. There was also a 50% chance I'd be in the placebo arm.

Sometimes, you just gotta put your health and safety over everything else in the world.

sorry, but I didn't realize that the study was on stress, but maybe they should of put you in an hot elevator and made it get stuck in between floors to see how you would handle the stress. lol

That happened to me yesterday in my hotel in Aruba, wow if they hadn't come and get me out in 10 minutes, I probably would have flared for sure. That was scary.

Still don't feel bad.

Don't feel bad. I bet your dr will understand. With UC, I think its a very personal thing to deal with. All of our triggers and symptoms are going to be different and you probably couldn't have predicted the fact that you couldn't handle the stress of the study. For me, UC means I have to just look after myself and if I have to rearrange something, there is nothing I can do if it upsets someone! So, yeah... basically what Guardian7 said... you have to look after yourself, and feel good about that.

Sounds like the stress study was full of stress. You shouldn't feel bad. Not only aren't you going to be the only one to drop out but I'm sure they factor in that not 100% of the participants are going to make it to the end.

It wouldn't be much of a study, much less indicative of IBD stress if the circumstances surrounding the study influenced your physiological state. This is why study construction is really important. I think it's more of a failure of the study than you to be honest. For starters, they could make the lectures online for personal convenience and not do such invasive procedures that generate stress.

And it's probably just not you. Other people are experiencing the same thing you are.

Fail study is a fail study. I could construct a better one 15 minutes.

I couldn't do it...but I understand why you wanted to do it.

I think those of us who do have stress, depression, anxiety, bipolar...eventually learn that constant commitments in which WE HAVE NO control aren't going to work.

Why???? because the downtime isn't enough and we don't know how we'll be feeling when those commitments happen. Especially when we're told we have to do stress management practice at home...lol.

This was a huge learning curve for you. Embarrassed? never be....and if someone else tells you should have stuck with it, then say to them "I learned my limits... and knew that if I continued, I would have been severely distressed at the year-long commitment. I'm relieved".

Hopefully now, you'll start to feel much better because of your decision.

You did good from my perspective.... I'm proud that you recognised it and acted in a POSITIVE WAY )for you). I have a friend who has coined it "self-preservation"...fitting, yes?
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