Kat2017 said...
Thank you both for answering so quickly!
Notsosicklygirl, if I had surgery, I don't think I would go jpouch solely for the risk of pouchitis. I think I would just have the permanent ostomy. I'm okay with it. The idea of surgery/being colonless (for me) is WAY BETTER than the worry, stress, and pain that I face now. I'm in nursing school, so I started thinking that another benefit of an ostomy would be a really cool teaching object. I've even thought about being an ostomy nurse to help people who have to make the decision for surgery. I'm going to talk to my doctor about it the next time I visit!
I admire your commitment
I can tell you, blksteeda is right, there are other anxieties with having an ostomy. When I had an ostomy, I would get nervous about
it filling up, worried about
leaks (though I never really had any), worried about
the bag filling with gas, worried about
having a full bag in public, worried about
what to wear to hide the bag, worried about
my skin under the wafer itching, worried about
emptying in public bathrooms, worried about
the odor (it doesn't smell like what you're used to)... I worried about
having to change in a public restroom. You're supposed to carry a kit in case of a leak. While it didn't happen to me, I could see it wouldn't be easy. After a few weeks, you're really good at managing it, but I still dreaded the thought of a leak in public and trying to get cleaned up in a little stall... I would have to get up in the night to empty - when I get up at night now, I don't have to turn on lights, with the ostomy, I would have to turn everything on so I could see what i was doing - couldn't get back to sleep. If you're ever without insurance, the supplies are expensive! Then a lot of the time, you're only allowed to get a certain # of items in a month, so you can be running low and they will not want to cover. Plus, there is a prescript
ion from your doctor for the supplies, sometimes you're waiting around to get an item because your doctor hasn't given approval.
As for being an ostomy nurse, it would be really great to have a nurse with an ostomy. Mine didn't have one, but my goodness, she was amazing. The ostomy nurses I dealt with were really passionate about
working with people and teaching them. You don't have to have an ostomy to help people. A lot of what these nurses do is provide support. I remember spilling all my fears to my nurse the day before surgery. It's a really challenging thing to go through. I wouldn't rush into it. I am thankful I did it, I am thankful to be done with doctors appointments and medications, but if the medications worked for me, I would have gladly kept my colon. Take your time and see how you feel. If you're 100% sure you want to be done with UC, consult with some surgeons.
Oh gosh, I forgot to mention my #1 fear with the ileo, NOISES. You can be in a silent room and have it sputter out some stuff and it sounds like you're farting. Granted, it gets less problematic over time. The longer you have it, the more your body adapts, but I only had mine for 4 months and it was noisy. It was embarrassing at times. I would put my hand over to muffle sound, but you really don't have much control.