Thank you again for your responses and prayers. Keith, great advice on the printout and notes. I used to do that with my kid's pediatricians. We'll have to sit down and make a list.
Our doctor is very well known for 'fixing' this cancer (ultra low rectal tumors) and he has a great record of patients not needing permanent colostomies. Our nurse yesterday reminded us of this. But he didn't get good margins during the big surgery back in May and had to go further around the sphincter than he wanted to. He still felt confident that he was successful overall. Since then however, it's just been one complication and procedure after another. Your head would spin... fistula's, ulcers, severe stricture and severe reaction to his chemo. No fault of anyone, just the way things happened.
All that to say that while I feel like he's always had our best interest in mind, he can be a little prickly when you question him. Hopefully we can find a way to talk with him to get answers without being offensive. The first time I saw his stoma post-surgery, I was shocked! My first thought was this looks like a butcher job. I just wish he had explained, 'I had some problems with adhesions and scar tissue, so I did the best I could', or whatever! to explain why it's such an impossible stoma. I think our nurse feels the same way. She told me that our questions are all fair questions.
She did explain that in order to create a healthy stoma, they have to bring up mesentery tissue to provide good blood flow, which we have; his stoma has great color. It just looks like it's getting pulled in from the inside. It's actually creating a fold in his skin on that side. So maybe because of all the extensive surgery he's had, this was the only way to make it work. I would just like to know that! It would certainly calm our mental and emotional freak-outs!
My prayer is that my husband can get back to tennis, golf, jogging and going out to dinner with his wife
. I can't imagine living in fear that his bag is going to blow. He certainly deserves at least that, right!?
Anyway, the 'fix' that the ostomy nurse did yesterday is holding... 18 hours now!
I can't believe how helpful this forum is! If nothing else to vent all the madness that's floating around in our heads!
-Bobbie