Blimey................. every time i think about
options, i don't want them. If Patched or Mamanuss heard or knew about
all this stuff i think they would feel scared. Am i right?
I have gone from knowing i need closure to thinking i don't need it then back to reality i need it, but to be honest talking on this site has helped me so much, Patched, Mamanuss you both have played such a signifiicant part in helping me with this.
I thought maybe i should share this report from my consultant:
75 in sinus rhythm. blood pressure 120/70 fixed splitting of the second heart sound but no other anormality ECG confirmed sinus rhythm with occasional atrial ectopics, axis 70, PR interval 0.16 seconds. There was mild intra ventricular conduction defect. Enchocardiography showed a normal left heart with a dilated right heart and a large secundum type atrial septal defect.
This was the conclusion of all the differant scans i had............. as what is written i need to have closure?
I haven't put the end of the conclusion but basically it states for now i am healthy........... so do i need closure now? or can i see how things go?
To be honest i want my life back. I don't want or need this now, i want to carry on getting all i can from life. I want to share my life with my husband, i want to see and watch my son give me grandchildren, i want to ride my horse, and still give all i believe into my work with people with disabilities
oh well who said life would be easy