Hey everyone...
so interesting...after three years, I finally find out FOR SURE that the "shake and bake" was the cause of this, and that is the "pericarditis", not ONE doctor out of all the states I have visited would confirm that the FEVER I had at 19 was the cause of this, but, now its easy to tell that it was, without a doubt. I went from such extreme hot and cold for so many day's, I still to this day do not know how many days passed...I have never been so ill in my life before that, or since.
More importantly today....
{{{{{{{{MISTER S.}}}}}}}}}}}
You have a lot of prayers coming your way...I already know that you will be on my mind from the moment I wake up tomorrow, until YOU POST AGAIN. and since I can hardly sleep, it will surely start tonight. I will be staring at the clock all day tomorrow. You are so tough that people like you breeze though stuff like this, because you are so strong. Your going to kick butt and take names! Just please do not forget to post as soon as you can...even if its just to say what a crappy mood you are in, and don't feel like talking about anything. So much for the theory that men are babies,and women are stronger. I admire you so much, you have shown so much strength. I hope I can follow in your footsteps.
Les, Teri-bear, Nan and Pat and of course Mister S....thank you so much for the information..I always read what you all write to my family; and we hang on to every word you all say. I guess because I have been alone in this for three years, to hear what will happen, you all know more than all the doctor's I have spoke too, what a blessing this site has been to me....all i can say is God bless the internet!
Thanks for the info on the neck vein, I am insanely crazy about needing to know everything..when my son's were born early, and were in ICU, first thing I would do
is grab the chart. OH do they hate it when you touch the "scared chart", they act like
its private information that no one should see...I just find comfort in reading it for myself. They always say so much more in the chart then what comes out of their mouths.
The pressure in my head is crazy, but mostly when I lay down...same with the breathlessness...can't seem to catch a breath. The cardiogist put me on Rythmol a few days ago to control the atrial fib, it has helped, but I have felt so sick the last few days. I was given this years ago when they thought I just had two leaky valves..it made me so sick, I threw up all nite..enough details, but for now, my heart has beat pretty normal the last few days, but the chest pain has been INTENSE.
Teri, thanks for the info on the stents, I will pass that along to my stepmonster...
as far as the boy's...I have decided after reading what you all wrote; and thinking hard on it, that I will just lay it on them. Worst thing is not telling the truth; and someday them thinking I wasn't honest with them.
Well guys, I just do not even have the strength to type anymore...ha, your all clapping now..so I will cut this short today..I cracked UP when I read about relatives CALLING and wanting to TALK about THIS ENDLESSLY....I so can't deal with that either...you hear..hello..how is your heart today? And its like, can you just wait and talk about something else for a moment...you just want some normalcy. In all actuality the only ones I like discussing this is with YOU GUYS...you all can relate...all in the same spot at one time or another...no pity..just caring...advice...and details..extremely constructive. I have a "going away dinner planned for me on the 12th..it makes me freak when I see the pity, or the "sorry for me look" in their eyes....its the worst..
Mister you rock, and i can't wait to hear all the gorey details...I look forward to the day when I can pass it along to someone like me, waiting in the wings...I will be hangin on your every word...God bless you, and it sound like you are in great hands!!
To everyone else...thank you for being so good to me, your patience with all my questions and babbling is so appreciated...you all hand me a bit of courage daily.
Cathy
again....{{{{{hugs for Mister}}}}}}}}