Wanda :) ! :) ! What I hear is very serious. You are at a place where you seem all alone, but you're not! I have had thoughts similar to yours. You are at a stage in this process that I haven't seen yet. I am ready to give up before you did. You are light years ahead of me in this sad ordeal. Yes it is very hard on many people, and you obviously are one. There are many out there with transplanted hearts. I know of an elderly Lady who is doing just fine. If I were to ever reach your point, I know that anything that I could do, just to prolong my life to give science time to make me healthy again, might be a choice that I would make.
Now to be truthful, you have every right to control your destiny as well as you can. I want that right too. I wonder how many have let themselves go rather than keep fighting this disease? In the end, I will probably endure the hospital stays and all the fun that is. People not familiar with heart disease may think we lay up in a hospital bed just lounging away. Not ! They are always cutting, needling, and blood testing us to D.
Well, I am really blessed due to you sharing your thoughts with me. They are an education for me :)
G-d Bless,
Rj
Post Edited (Aldo) : 4/10/2006 7:57:15 PM (GMT-6)