Awake and feeling awful

Here I sit after midnight with the "lump in throat" feeling worse then ever. It seemed to ease up for a little while but now it's back with a vengeance. I've been waiting for an endoscopy since May and have two more weeks to wait. I'm afraid that after 10 years of gerd that it's developed into a cancer, even though I know it's rare, this just doesn't feel right and PPI's don't help any longer, although I had a good run with Nexium until the last six months. My chest feels so heavy tonight and I feel as though I could choke even though I know I'm breathing just fine. I've been trying so hard to be hopeful, but tonight I'm feeling hopeless, I guess because this feels so physically horrible. I know the feeling of a flare up, but I've never had one this bad and along with it I have ear ringing and an off balance feeling, even some blurry vision and spacey type feeling, hard to explain. I'm more afraid tonight then I've been in a long long time, I really don't want to face what could be coming, but on the other hand, I want to know what I'm dealing with because sometimes the wondering is worse if that makes any sense.

please don't feel so bad...my gerd goes back to around 1987....it was the so-called silent gerd but I always asked the doctors about my sore throat. finally you give up talking to a wall.

Then about 10 years ago I started belching a lot and was diagnoised (spelling) with gerd. Then after a stomach virus which consisted of bad belching, vomiting, diarehea (spelling), etc. I went to the doctor and she set me up with gastro.

Am taking a new drug and it is a bit better. Now I know to stop belching attacks as quickly as possible.

Well, the cancer part is sad but very low incidence. Do take care and keep your appointment. Perhaps you will be relieved to know that your GERD is not so bad.