Sorry for the ranting...

I just need a place to vent. No one really needs to respond or comment, I'm just so sick these days and I feel like I have no one. I don't post on here much, but I don't have anywhere to go. Over the course of the past 3 years or so it's just been a down hill battle. It started with IBS. It sucked, but I managed it as best as I could. The IBS subsided, but in turn I started having some chest issues. I had a hard time breathing and I felt like someone was sitting on my chest. I went to an ER and they told me that I most likely had bronchitis and gave me some antibiotics. Needless to say, none of it went away. Because of these problems I've grown incredibly anxious, fearing the worst. So I went to a doctor. She told me that it sounded like acid reflux, costochondritis and I also had sinusitis at the same time. She gave me some meds for that. My sinuses got better but nothing else. Went back. Because I was now having troubles swallowing and nothing seemed to be improving she had me go in for an EGD. Had that done, results came back that I did have stomach biles coming back up into my esophagus, but that my esophagus wasn't showing signs of much else. Which was good. The doctor put me on Prevacid. Although the shortness of breath got better while I was on the Prevacid, I was still having difficulty swallowing. I could still feel pain in my stomach. I also get back pain, pain under my arm pits and some lower abdominal pain. I hurt from my diaphragm all the way across both sides. Then I was having some other symptoms that read to be some side effects of the Prevacid. So after about 4 months I went off of it. Now I'm having shortness of breath again. My throat hurts so badly all the way up to almost my tonsils. (Not to mention my nose feels like it's on fire.) I lately feel like I have flu like symptoms every day and I'm incredibly tired. I'm just so tired of being sick. I'm 27 years old, I have 4 kids and all I want to do is be able to keep up with them. I'm so afraid that I'm going to get cancer. I'm going to go back on the Prevacid, but I don't know what to do. I still couldn't swallow properly when I was on it before. This is making me nutty and I feel like no one believes me and everyone just thinks it's anxiety or that I'm depressed. Yea, I'm depressed because I feel like I'm going to die in my 30's!!!!!

I'm going to switch doctors and see if I can get another opinion, but it's so hard to get to a doctor with the kids. I'm just so fed up. I want this to all get better so I can go back to living normally again. Life used to be happy.

Wow Kitty, it sure sounds like you have a lot on your plate! Just having four kids alone is enough stress for anybody. When you throw on your symptoms, you must really be having a tough time.

I'm thinking of you and hope you find some answers and relief very soon.

Hugs!

Kitty, I am so sorry for what you are going through. If you ever need support or talk you can email me at [email protected].