Hi all,
Marie - I agree with everyone. Get a second opinion. Especially since you have such a willingness to learn all about this you will have a lot of "ammo" if you find a doctor who gives you a hard time!! We're all here for you girl!! Or shall I say "old lady". I guess since I'm 40 I should get a geriatric doctor also?? Thanks for the trial info on the website. I not only watched it, I called but missed when the lady called me. I was talking to someone at the hospital today (I went to the community hospital over the weekend to get into the system this way I'll have backup if my insurance doesn't pay much for surgery..I hope!!!).. and they also had similiar symptoms and were very negative unfortunately. When I said I had a "sore throat"...(It's just irritated from the acid) he said...that's cancer symptoms. Like I wanted to hear that even though I know it can be. It got me so I cried 1/2 the drive home. Then, I start "concentrating" on how it feels when I swallow and I get more worried. I have times throughout this trial that I can get really down. But, I somehow pull myself up although not as much as before.
Barb - I'm praying for your new pains as well as for Bill's upcoming surgery and Marie's new doc . I swear Barb, we're given new pains so we don't think as much about all our issues. I pray they get resolved for you. The shooting pains in belly sound like they may just go away. The other, down lower, sounds surgically related but more due to soreness. Please let me know how your feeling. I didn't hear about mental illness drugs helping but BRING EM ON. I'll try anything at this point. I guess I feel like the clock is ticking and that I am pressured with this disease ya know?? I wish I could take my time more. Get this.....I never mentioned much stuff about having issues with having daily bowel movements. I work for a doctor and his daughter (another doctor) wrote me a letter to bring to any doctors I see. It says she thinks I have Hirshsprungs disease. It's where you don't go but every several days and then it is larger and hard to have movements. It is diagnosed as a child but sometimes missed. She is a PHD so is pretty smart but who knows. I remember being a kid and having a "chart" and taking mineral oil. After talking to my mom and knowing how I've been for so long and hearing about tests I could of had that my mom thought at the time were invasive I think the doc might be right. Other gastro's never really made a diagnosis because I never really mentioned it but when talking to the holistic doc, he said that that is a MAJOR problem and might be why no meds ever helped. Although now, I'm sure my LES is flapping in the "wind" 24/7 and my whole digestive system is a mess. I just got done drinking major prune juice (not something on my diet but I'm miserable) and nothing. I do get luck with an herbal tea but it has senna and I'd rather just use prune juice first. Oh, what happens with Hirshprungs is that your nerves at the end of the colon don't work so you don't feel a need to go until lots of stool pushes and by that time your extrememly bloated and everything is like concrete I really don't care what I have I just want to be able to go. I'M AFRAID THAT MAY CAUSE PROBLEMS WITH ME BEING A SURGERY CANDIDATE!! Barb, you are such a trooper and been through so much, I feel like a big "punk" because I'm so scared of all this stuff. I went to a prayer meeting (I was born Catholic but go to Christian functions etc. sometimes) Sunday and it felt so good I cried. It was so cool. And then today after work and picking up meds at the county hospital I got really down. I had to turn down a major opportunity for major money. A brother of a man I use to do nursing for called me but I was honest with him and said at this time I can't make any major commitments. I mean, it would be on my own not where I could call someone to take my place. And...besides, I would have to drop other less committed jobs that I am currently comfortable with at the time. I mean money will be very very tight but If I can get a handle on this THE SKY IS THE LIMIT. And I dont mean financially. I just love to help others and hate to have to turn things down. I guess you could say I'm a workaholic.
Bill - My prayers go out to you also. May 18th is really not that far. I had to laugh when you said that the docs said that "everything felt right when they ran the scope past it". Then you thought..."It doesn't FEEL right when I swallow". It's not funny...but I would be saying the same thing. When I was at the community hospital and told the doc about the bitter taste (It's just red tape to go to ER so you can get in the system), he said "i've never heard of 24-7 bitterness" are you sure??. He was nice enough but I said "oh, make no mistake..it's definitely there ALL the time. I hate when a doc makes me feel like I don't know what I'm talking about. I almost feel like pulling my college grades out (although getting ancient) or something but that's just me!! I wonder how many times a nissan can be done? I'm sure many times and I know you'll be fine. Your in good hands. One question bill...I know you go to Loyola for some things but didn't you say you get your surgery done near you in the Quad cities?? Is the same surgeon re-doing it or will it be another guy. Is it the same surgeon that "widened" your esophigis when you had trouble the first year?
Okay guys - take care - I'm going to pray for us later this evening - thanks for listening - tracy