~The Road Of Life ~ Part 1 Locked

Posted by Pandacrazy on 7/17/2010 @ 8:00 PM  Joy, I have no position description yet. The closest thing I have is what was written about me in the senior newsletter which just said I would have added duties in addition to what I currently do. Nothing official though. I have looked at a jobs at senior apartment/assisted living complexes down in TN. I haven't looked around here, but I know how tight jobs are right now. I have 4 immediate family members currently unemployed right now where I live that have been looking for a year so don't know what my chances would even be. I may have to accept this job for the time being just so I can get the house ready to sell and get rid of a lot more stuff. I also think I need to get some kind of schooling and or certification to put on my resume on top of my 10 years of experience and the 15 years from my other job. Kitt, yeah I didn't get home from the out door until about 2:30am and then have to take my bedtime pills and then an hour later have to take my carafate so that's one of the reasons I was up so late. I wasn't going to go to the outdoor because I was so upset and my eyes looked terrible but one of my little sisters talked me into it. I'm glad I went Despicable Me was funny and heart warming. Robin Hood was really good and it was a new twist with the story focusing on before he became an outlaw. You'll have to check those two out. I've talked to all my sisters today and they can't believe what they did to me at my job. One sister doesn't think I should tell them about the surgery I need on my foot and shoulder until after I sign the papers with them. I don't know what to do about it. I have a friend that had the same shoulder surgery that I need done but he waited many years and they couldn't even fix it all because of all the scar tissue that built up, so I don't want to end up like that since it has already been 3 years. My foot is going to be getting worse again because the shot is already wearing off and he already gave me the shot earlier than he usually does because I scheduled the surgery for it so he wouldn't have to give me future shots. I took a two hour nap this after noon and couldn't even escape from the reality of what has happened as I dreamed about it. Well I suppose I should get ready and look half way presentable because my little sister who's hubby is in a band wants us to come out and hear his band play at a firemans picnic about 20 minutes from us. She told me I need to get out of the house and it's free which is sounding really good to me these days. talk to you later. Barb P.S. hope every one else is having a good summer! My laundry list of diseases include, Ulcetive Colitis, GERD, chronic gastritis, Asthma, Alergies, CAD stent to LAD 1/4/05, TMJ and a deteriorating disk in lower back. Also chronic pain from a moped accident 11/9/07 which left me with back, hand, knee and foot problems and broken tailbone Jan/09. Meds,calcium, lecithin, biotin, flax oil, magnesium, CoQ 10, vitamin C, zinc, Proair, Amytryptaline 15mg, Advair 500/50, albuterol nebulizer soluition, Ambian, pepcid, carafate, nexium, Zertec, Hydrocodone, cyclobenzedrine, Proud grandma of Isabella Rose, Keegen Bryce, Caleb Owen and furry grandchildren Kayu, Sophie, Abby & Lucy

Good call Kitt. I like it. How is it going for you? Well I hope.

Hey Joy, I told them before I signed papers because I felt that was what I should do. Then I asked if they still wanted me they said of course we do. They gave me the same wage including the raise the city just gave me. I had a really rough first week though because I am still very hurt, feel betrayed and dumped on by my former employer. When they had my ex boss's party I wouldn't leave the office even though her former boss, my new boss and a few others wanted me too. I figured they wouldn't want out there crying. I was on the verge of tears all afternoon and did start crying 3 times, because I am still really hurt and to see all the employees coming and going and knowing I don't work with them any more was just too much. I can't believe the Mayor even had the guts to come in and talk to me. He apologized for the way I was treated and said he didn't know that my boss's last day was last week. Yeah sure he didn't. Every one was sent a memo about it. I wanted to tell him off but all I could say was yeah and sit there choking back the tears. I would have liked to have said thanks for nothing and then asked him what I am supposed to tell my grandkids when they come to visit and grandma can't spend any time with them because I have to work. I would prefer to never see him again. I can't believe that the lady that is the head of the department the center was under had the guts to call my new boss and ***** because I wasn't out there. My new boss came out of her office and said to me very gently and in an upbeat voice that she had told her that it was a good thing they had taken over otherwise the center would have closed. She is very very nice. I do feel I have a right to feel this way and no one that is not going through it themselves can possibly understand. Eventually I will feel better about it all. I didn't expect to be this upset my self. I am feeling over whelmed with the crazy new insurance I have to fill out and then i have to try to determine how much to put in a flex account. The insurance varies so much for different things. I have never in my life had such a mixed up mess for medical insurance. There is a $750 deductable and then there are copays and some count toward the deductible and some don't and somethings you have to pay the 20% and the 35 dollar deductible. Makes you want to scream. Well at least I didn't cry at all today. Crying seems to help though when I'm really mad like that and hurt. Went to my pain doc for probably the last time today because I don't think he is in the network. He gave me some trigger point injections because of my insurance changing. He doesn't usually do that in the office. I don't think he got all of them in my shoulder though. He did say that he thinks that the shoulder surgery my surgeon is doing will relieve a lot of the pain in my shoulder because it's throwing every thing out of line and putting extra strain on the muscles. Man is my shoulder ever bad right now. I may have to go visit palady over in the chronic pain thread. I bet your throat is allergies. Mine are really bad now too and causing my voice to be raspy and I can feel the junk in there. Well time to get ready for bed.

Where is evey one else? Take care and have a good night. Barb

The floor is done except for the trim and threshold strips. It looks beautiful. Now my mother is hinting for a paint job on the walls. :((
We haven't even touched the outsides of the house except for the porch. I've been working everyday this week at the school. I've been trying to unpack the centers and file a ton of papers. I spent about 7 hours filing three very large stacks of worksheets. My back has gripe and complained all week.

The storm isn't going to get near me. It's over towards Alabama side. I'm closer to South Carolina.

Barb, I'm sorry your going through this. I'm hoping that it will get better for you. I know how you feel about losing your friends at work. I had two co-workers who retired last year and one who transferred. I thought we would stay in touch forever. Two I hadn't heard from in over a year. One calls me every few weeks and talks to me for couple of minutes. Somehow the friendship fades when you don't have work to talk about.

Joy

I'm in misery tonight. :((
I made the mistake of eating all the wrong things tonight: cucumber, sausage, lima beans, ho cake, honey, a small bag of candied peanuts, 4 oreos, and a cup of milk (not all at once). I was set on fire!
Out of desparation I took my first Zantac in months. :(
I let loose some of the most eardrum shattering burps I've ever done. I'm still spasming some and feel the need for a good back beating.
I need relief!

Joy

I'm better today. :)
A good night's rest and I feel so much better.

I'm just going to never mix those again. :(

Joy

As always Kitt you Have hit a home run! I like this idea and wish all the other forums would get one too. Some are a bit more sticlers though. I have so much to share about my long absence, but be assured I am safe. I have missed you all very much and will get up to date as soon as I get my reading in.

Take care,
Bill

I was about ready to start a "Where in the world is Bill" thread again. :D
Good to see you're back.

Joy

Good Morning All,


Barb, I hope you get the insurance all figured out and that it works out for your best interest.



To All, I will be missing in action over the weekend as My husband's uncle died and we have a funeral to attended on Friday afternoon late and then we are heading upnorth on Saturday for the rest of the weekend with our children.



A huge thank you to all of you who continue to support each other and help Bill and I to keep this forum running so smoothly. You are the best.



Gentle Hugs,



Kitt

Kitt, so sorry to hear about the death in your family. I'll keep your family in my prayers. I still don't know what the new insurance pays for and doesn't for sure. The HR for my former job got back to me and I was told that if I applied for cobra now before the new insurance kicks in and it has no preexisting condition clause that the cobra would be discontinued as soon as that insurance kicked in, but if I wait and get the cobra after the new insurance kicks in that then it would continue for 18 months as long as I paid the payments each month ($498) it would or may pay for stuff. So yeah I'm still a bit lost concerning that. I found out today that in the next 2 years they are selling the building I am currently working in. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm what happens to me then? I am already starting some training in September I take one on volunteerism. My new boss wants me to take it and I had already been looking at that one. She told me she knows I have worked with volunteers for the last 10 years but you can always learn something new. I agreed of course. Any education I can get in before any more changes is for the better. I had kind of a shock today when I went to the gym I belong too so I could cancel my membership since my new job includes one plus I can't afford it anymore now. I encountered one of my former fellow employees on their way out and of course was asked how I was doing. I quickly said ok as I felt like crying again. I thought I was past all that but apparently it has to be some one I like to have an unwanted effect on me. Well guess it is going to take more time. Oh well went and got a movie so will escape into a world of make believe. Lol.

Joy oh my what an awful night and morning. Bug spray makes my asthma bad too. I learned in my asthma class that I had that any aerosol can make asthma worse and should be avoided. Some times easier said than done. I hope you get rid of the ants and your kittys are feeling better. Well am off to watch my movie now. I have a cookout fundraiser for the center the next 2 days so will be really wiped out by the time I am done with that. Have a good weekend. Will try to check back in. Barb

Hi Denise, we've missed you. Sorry to hear about your stomach problems, allergies and asthma. Wow all at once too. That's the way mine seem to run too. My allergies seem to be really bad due to all the rain and standing water every where no doubt. As soon as I go out the door my eyes start itching. I can smell a moldy mildew smell. I'm allergic to 7 different types of mold. I've had a hoarse voice since June. Not sure if it is from the reflux, allergies or both. I need to go get a lower and upper GI done. I'm having problems swallowing and the one doc had said my anemia could be due to some thing in my colon so needs to be checked out. Will have to see what happens with the insurance. I'm glad you've found a good allergy doctor. My allergy doctor and asthma doc both ask about my reflux when I see them. Well time to get off to bed I have a very long day tomorrow with the fundraiser cook out. Barb

Ants! Ants!! Ants!!!

I came home to even a larger number of them boogers running all over my counters! More spray! More asthma attacks! My throat is getting so irritated from all of the spraying.
I'm getting so frustrated.

I'm so busy right now with getting ready for school. I've got a list of 11 things left to do before 3 o'clock on Monday when open house starts. I feel like I need to go over there and work this weekend to finish it all on time.

Breathe, Joy.....Breathe...
Denise knows the stress I'm feeling.

Joy,
If you can swing it, you would probably do well to hire a professional to handle your extreme ant problem. One day I had hundreds of ants in one of our rooms. I vacuumed them all up and taped the bag shut. Then I called the pros. We had to have an ant contract for the last four years we lived in our other house. Ants would show up everywhere. With your asthma issues, you should definitely be staying away from the spray. The pro who came to our house said we had the worst infestation he'd seen. After the initial treatments, the ant numbers went way down, and it was just an occasional visitor.

Yes, I do know the hard work and stress involved in getting ready for open house! Teaching in general is a boatload of work! I hope you have a good class this year. I'm sure you'll have your challenges, as teachers always do! I know the open house, in addition to ants and remodeling, is about to put you over the edge. That's not good for your asthma, either! Take a deep breath and do what everyone else told me to do--relax and stop being such a perfectionist! Do what you can do, and don't worry about what doesn't get done, because nobody but you will know or notice!

Good luck with the ants, Joy, and take care of that asthma.



Kitt,
Thanks for your good wishes and concern. It's not fun dealing with reflux after the surgery, but I have some good docs who will guide me through. My new asthma doc is amazing. He is not pleased with GI docs, though, and when I asked him to recommend one, he expressed his frustration over the GI doc's clueless about asthma/GERD connection issue.

Unfortunately, right now my reflux is really kicking up (it seems to ebb and flow--literally!). My asthma doc doesn't like the wedge at night. I have my bed elevated, but when things are bad, I feel like the wedge takes some pressure off. I know that if I slip down on it, it can put me in a bad position, but I'm a light sleeper, and generally readjust myself if I slip down.

Does anyone have an opinion on this? Should I listen to my asthma doc and ditch the wedge, or go with my gut feelings that it helps when I'm having a flare-up. I'd love to hear what you think.


Barb,
You sound like you have a good attitude going forward with your new job situation. If you catch yourself thinking negative thoughts about it, just halt those thoughts and replace them with thoughts of gratitude for all you have to be thankful for--your family, your scrap-booking, your friends here and other places. Your mind can't think negative and positive thoughts at the same time, so if you keep your mind on the positive, things will go much more smoothly and happily in your job and life.

You still have lots of options, but there is no rush to jump into anything. You can take your time and consider everything before deciding to stay or go. The economy is bad now, but it won't be forever. Just know that ultimately you have choices, but you also have time.

Hope you have/had fun at the grill, and have lots of laughs!

Take care and have a great weekend, everyone!
Denise