HELLO AGAIN,
IT HAS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I HAVE POSTED ANYTHING. BEEN REALLY BUSY WITH DIFFERENT THINGS GOING ON WITH MOM. YESTERDAY I RECEIVED A PHONE CALL FROM THE FACILITY THAT SHE IS IN AND THEY WANT TO PUT HER ON A DOUBLE DOSE OF XANAX BECAUSE SHE IS MORE ANXIOUS AND DEPRESSED AND IS BANGING ON THE DOOR TO GET OUT. SHE IS IN A SECURED FACILITY DUE TO HER WANDERING. SHE IS ALSO ON CELEXA FOR DEPRESSION.
SHE WAS FIRST ON ATIVAN 0.125MG FOR about 6 MONTHS NOW THEY HAVE HER ON XANAX .25MG ONE PER DAY. YESTERDAY THEY CALLED ME AND WANT TO INCREASE HER DOSAGE TO .25MG TWICE A DAY BECAUSE OF THE SHORT SPAN THAT IT STAYS IN YOUR SYSTEM.
I HAVE READ SO MUCH ON THIS BECAUSE SHE IS NOW IN THE LATE MODERATE TO SEVERE STAGE. I AM AFRAID THAT SHE WILL BE MORE LIGHTHEADED AND AM AFRAID OF FALLS. SHE REFUSES TO USE A WALKER AND AT THIS LATE STAGE I DON'T THINK ANYONE WOULD BE ABLE TO TEACH HER AND SHE WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO TAKE IT ALL IN. SHE IS ALSO LEGALLY BLIND. WHEN I SAY THAT, SHE CAN SEE TO WALK BUT EVERYTHING IN A BLURR.
I CALLED THE FACILITY LAST NIGHT AND TOLD THEM OF MY CONCERNS. I REALLY DO NEED TO TALK TO THEM MORE about THIS. ACTUALLY FROM WHAT I AM READING THE ELDERLY AND DEBILATED SHOULD ONLY BE TAKING 0.125 2 OR 3 TIMES A DAY. AS IT IS MY MOTHER HAS CHRONIC ATRIL FIBRILLATION AND HAS LOW BLOOD PRESSURE. IF SHE CONTINUES ON THIS MEDICATION I AM AFRAID THAT I AM GOING TO GET A REALLY DISTURBING MESSAGE THAT SHE HAS FALLEN OR WORSE.
I AM LOOKING TO ALL OF YOU GOING THROUGH THIS TO PLEASE HELP ME AND LET ME HEAR FROM YOU about HOW YOU FEEL about THIS.
IF MY MOM WERE TO GO HOME TO THE LORD, I CERTAINLY DON'T WANT IT TO BE BECAUSE OF SOME STUPID MEDICATION THAT CAUSED A CRITICAL REACTION OR BECAUSE OF A FALL BECAUSE SHE WAS TO GROGGY TO WALK AND FELL. SHE WOULD NEVER SURVIVE A SURGERY BECAUSE OF HER HEART CONDITION.
WELL, I AM GETTING READY NOW TO CALL THEM THEN I THINK I AM GOING TO GO DOWN THERE. I AM EXTREMLY WORRIED. I AM ON KLONOPIN SO I KNOW WHAT THESE BENZO'S CAN DO TO YOU. ALTHOUGH SHE IS 86 AND HAS OTHER MEDICAL ISSUES WHERE I DO NOT, ONLY ANXIETY.
THANKS FOR ALL OF YOUR SUPPORT, IT MEANS MORE TO ME THAN YOU KNOW.
HOPE