17 Year Old Trying His Best To Overcome The Anxiety

What's up! I haven't posted here in a while. I have been getting better. Sometimes I feel like im talking some steps back, but I am always pushing forward. I just got my licesne (so I can finaly drive by myself!). Im becoming less paniacy but still have a logn way to go.

I have something to share though. Do any of you guys feel you often argue with yourself about untrue statements? I often feel in my head I go over things over and over again. For example sometimes I'll worry about something that I know is untrue. But theres a part of me that doesnt want to stop worrying about it, even though I do know its untrue. A part of me know that this statement is untrue, but the other part of me will still insist on saying it is true. It may sound kind of confusing, but any advice for dealing with headaches like this.

Like for example lets say if I were to leave my house through my garage. Sometimes i'll worry that I leff the garage door open when I clearly remmeber closing it. But even though I do know I closed my garage door, i'll have to walk back to my house to double check and make sure that I did indeed close the door. Is there any cure to this? Is it because im not confident in my memory? Not confident enough in myself? Lack of trust for myself? I'm stumped on this one.

But I still can't complain. Im getting better with my aniexities. Now I can go pretty much anywhere and even if I get really paniacy, calm myself down back to normal.

Im fighting a battle that I will win. Im hoping to go to that WWE event later this year if all goes smoothly!

I have thoughts like that too, thoughts that i know r wrong bt cant get them out of my head. For me the important thing is too remember the times when im wrong. Its so easy to just remember the times your right and forget about the times your wrong.

What's up everyone! Very busy time in school. Thanks for the info, I checked up on OCD and I am pretty sure I have that. Now I realize a lot of my thoughts arent wierd, there actually normal for a person who has OCD.

Today I had a paniac attack. It was during bible study, I wasnt that scared though. During my paniac attack my vision was really bother me. I just keept looking at objects in the room and getting tenses. It feel like my eyes were crosing and everything I looked at looked weired. It is hard to explain. Now that I look back, I dont understand why I was afraid. I mean no one was scaring me, it wasnt a scary enivronment. I just remember before I was thinking about my vision and thinking it wasnt clear enough. Maybe this caused me to get tense and my vision to go haywire. To clear this up a little more, lets say if I was looking at a couch, Id just become tense. The couch isnt movie, the ground isnt shaking, I am in a peaceful environment, but I see and feel terror.

Does anyone have problems with there eyes during a paniac attack? For instance I can see clearly, but something inside of me keeps saying there is something wrong with my vision. For example, you know when you look into a lamp or at the sun for a few seconds, after you finished looking at either your vision is distorted with spots. Is my aniexty causing this? To be honest, as I reflect on my past, when I started to worry about my vision was a few weeks before I had my first paniac attack when I thought I was going blind or had diabetes which would have caused me to go blind. Is it unrealistic for me to expect my vision to be crystal clear? I had eye surgery when I was a kid because I had a lazy eye. But I never worried about my vision, until I started having aniexty. Also when I look around the room, somtimes my hand gets really tense. I dont get why, theres nothing to be afraid of. This also happens sometimes when I look at my hands, I get really tense. I dont know why I sometimes feel im not me, or I am not here. Its is similiar to that out of body feeling, but I know I am here. Is this just me rejecting reality?

And Im having problems with sleeping. To be honest since I started having paniac attacks I havent had a real good sleep. I used to fear that I would become stuck sleeping for ever (sleep is the cousin of death), excuse my paranoia lol. But I have learned that thought is irrational so I plan on working on it.

I am coming closer to the finish line my friends, I hope you all are to! Look forward to reading your replies,

Sincerly,
More than likely the only 17 year old on this board,
Jats!

Hey Jats,

No your not........the only 17 year old We have members as young as 13 on the boards.

I am so sorry your going through all of the problems but I know with the help of these wonderful members you will receive much support, guidance and caring so keep talking to us. Your right the end is coming up.

You have great places to go and things to see.

Hugs

Kitt

Jats,

Glad to hear you are doing well and proud of you for doing what needed to be done to get yourself into a better place. Keep working on your anxiety control. Remember you have anxiety, anxiety does not have you.

Blessings,

Kitt