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Posted 9/30/2008 8:22 PM (GMT 0)

Hi everyone.  I am new here.  I am in my 30s and have this crazy fear of hearing voices and going crazy.  I dwell on it!  I am on guard and keep thinking it might happen.  Now, I am a pretty reasonable guy with a history of OCD and anxiety.  But, it went away (90%) for many years.  Suddenly, it has come back hard.

 

In the last 16 months…

 

First child

Father died

Bought a new home

Moved to another town

Still own the other home (first time landlord)

New job

Hospitalized for a bad viral infection

Got hit in the face with a flying bat (the animal)

Stress at work

 

So, I might be answering my own question.  However, last week the fear was cancer.  This week I suddenly spend every minute worrying I am going to lose my mind, hear voices, and go nuts.  It’s a real fear.  My wife is supportive, but does not know what goes on in the mind of a person with anxiety and OCD.  Can I actually lose it from all that I went thru?

 

Aside from this, I am a very happy guy that loves life and I just want the demons to rest and my mind to be at peace.  Thanks for listening.

Posted 9/30/2008 8:43 PM (GMT 0)

billy73

Welcome to HealingWell. I don't think you are losing your mind but I do think you need to seek help from a professional.  You may want to start with your PCP and receive a medical screening exam to rule out any medical issues.

From there I would ask you physician to refer you to a good therapist who can work with you.

Every day members of HealingWell recover their Self-esteem, their self-worth, their dreams, their pride, their dignity and a meaningful life.

Stck with us as we are here for you.

Again a warm welcome.

Kitt


Posted 9/30/2008 9:01 PM (GMT 0)
thanks. i did see a lic. social worker today (referred from PCP) and she did an intake evaluation. i am waiting to hear who will see me. she was like "yikes" as well! of course, she freaked me out by saying that i don't "appear" crazy. my OCD mind was thinking "yet." Ahhh!!!
Posted 10/1/2008 4:16 AM (GMT 0)

Hi Billy73,

Welcome to HW. If I had a penny for every person who said "well you look okay!!"

You have a great deal on your plate right now, and maybe with some time to breath and recover your symptoms may lessen. You got hit by a bat? The living kind? smhair

My general rule of thumb is that if you are worried about going crazy you are not. Truly delusional people do not know that their thought patterns are mixed up. If you can question yourself then you are okay. Try not to let the negative thinking get in the way of life. It will pass as it did before. And congrats on your first child!! If your wife doesn't understand your OCD, please know that many of us on this site DO. We are here to listen and support.

Meg

Posted 10/1/2008 11:06 PM (GMT 0)
Sounds like you are suffering quite a bit.  Is there a way to see a psychiatrist and not just a social worker?  They are medical Dr.s who specalize in these sort of issues, they will also be able to suggest the proper medication if that is appropriate for you.  Having a social worker say "yikes"certainly is not the most professional reaction to have.  I think you would get better care with an M.D.

Posted 10/1/2008 11:50 PM (GMT 0)

Hi there, and welcome!

By what you wrote, you've had many very recent HUGE changes in your life - something
that can trigger high anxiety with (what I call) runaway thoughts.  Firstly, congrats on your
new child!  Wow, that's awesome!  Also, a lot of new responsibilities with the new child, new
job, just getting to know new people in your new environment.

I believe time will heal your anxiety and those meany runaway thoughts... just try to live
in the present - write down things you're grateful for every day and focus on that, take
some slow, deep breaths in through your nose and out through your mouth.  I do this and
it's helped relieve anxiety almost immediately, after about the third deep breath.  I say the
words "In", "Out", and "Pause" while I'm breathing which keeps me focused on just those
words and my breath going in and out.

Sorry to hear you got hit in the head with a bat -- I hope it was an accident!!

You're totally going to be okay, just keep coming here whenever you need to to express, feel
and be heard!

~ Julie

Posted 10/2/2008 4:06 AM (GMT 0)
Hello Billy73,

Welcome to HW. We are all new at sometimes to all of this stuff going on in our heads. I have the racing thoughts and I hear the voices in my head. When I do that I try and think of somewhere peacful and somewhere I would love to be to take me away from those thoughts. With everything going on in your life. It sometimes will over take you. Just try and stay postive and know that your loved and that God is there for you, you just have to send him the knee mail. Just pray.

Best of luck and prayers,
Vel
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