New here...

Hello all. I'm new here. I posted in the new members introduction thread also. I guess I'm just looking for ppl to talk to who understand this whole anxiety/panic thing. I've had these since I was 16 yrs old. They come in spurts. I'll be cool for like 2 yrs and then they'll kick in and stick around for like a year or so. I have a ton of symptoms, although I can honestly say I've never felt like I was having a heart attack. My chest gets tight, my heart pounds, I feel like I can not breathe..like I just can't get a good breath of air in, I shake, I get clammy, my thoughts race all over the place, my hands and feet get tingly, my back and shoulders hurt so much just from being tense. about 4 yrs ago I started getting pain in my shin. Like a quick burst of it every few minutes and I would panic. I thought OMG I have bone cancer or something. I went to the doc and everything. They said all was fine. I read some stuff on the internet that made me think " well, if it was that, I'd have it elsewhere, too, right?" So then I started having pain in my forearms. Feels like bone pain. Doc said all was fine. The pains went away with the anxiety. I haven't had any in a like 3 yrs. It just started to come back again within the last few days. Yey me! I wake up in the morning and am just thrown into an attack. It's crazy. And the worst part is I know it can get worse. They've been worse. Anyway, just wanted to get some of this out. Thanks to anyone who reads.

Hi and thank you for welcoming me:) I have gone for CBT and it does work wonders. I still use the breathing exercises I was taught. As far as stress goes, I was married for the 2nd time in August of 08 and we moved half way across the country. I got married fairly quickly after getting out of a 7 yr abusive relationship. My husband is nothing like what I'm used to. He's sweet and caring and too kind. I feel like I'm waiting for things to fall apart. Or like because I have this good thing with him, now something horrid has to happen.I don't have a therapist as of yet out here. I have to find one...and soon.

Thank you. That's why I want to get this under control. I don't want it to get in the way. I do from time to time feel like I don't deserve him. And I'm pretty sure the move out here didn't help my situation. I just wanted to say thank you again.

Thanks Kitt:) I'll be sticking around here for sure and I'll let ya'll know when I find one. I think I'm doing a little better today so yey! lol

Flipundy,

Welcome to the forum! It's a shame that your anxiety is trying to rear its ugly head again, but you do have both old and new tools to deal with it. I hope you're able to find a therapist soon; CBT has helped me a great deal, and I'm glad you've had success with it in the past also. Your husband sounds wonderful, and I hope you'll allow him to support you in this. I am newlywed also (January), and my husband has been both a tower of strength for me and provided an opportunity for our relationship to grow as we share the reality of my anxiety (and a very disruptive spell with health anxiety right now). Several of us on here have experienced damaging or unsafe previous relationships and realize how tricky it can be to sort out all the "baggage" that you don't even realize you have from a toxic relationship. Remember: you DO deserve happiness, and you DO deserve your husband's love and support. Allow yourself to accept that as the good times-bad times give-and-take that it is, and grow in your new marriage. Congrats, and welcome!

percycat

I am so proud and glad that you have gotten so many great caring and supportive posts

I do hope that you will stay with this forum

The pple are great

Take care

...........LYN