someone please talk to me ( i'm sitting here crying)

selina lynn

Hello and welcome to HealingWell.  I am so sorry to hear you are having panic attacks.  Yes stress will certainly trigger attacks but I also am wondering when was the last time you saw your physician for a medical screening exam.  It may be a good idea for you to discuss your sx with your physician to be sure you do not have a medical problem going on.

Meanwhile if your not in therapy of any sort it might help you to try the CBT online therapy.  I will post the info here for you.

Cognitive-behavioral therapy is based on the idea that our thoughts cause our feelings and behaviors, not external things, like people, situations, and events. The benefit of this fact is that we can change the way we think to
feel / act better even if the situation does not change.

the Mood GYM:

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome

One of the best remedies for anxiety is to talk about it. Here's where good friends and family can come in. The old adage "A problem shared is a problem halved" comes into its own here, and while you may dismiss it as nonsense, it may surprise you how anxiety alleviating it can be to just talk to someone.

Obviously when you're feeling at a low ebb, the last thing you tend to think about is the things that are good in your life. But to do this is a sure fire mood lifter and anxiety buster.

Coming here and talking to others that have anxiety is a good choice and I am so glad you found us.

Again a warm welcome to you.

Kitt

Hi Selina,

Oh yes I understand how you feel. I get those out of control thoughts/feelings. Where something isn't right and you feel like running or sitting where you are standing and cry. Sometimes I get sudden urges of anger.

It happens and I'm not sure why. I hate them. Mine normally last at least an hour. The only way I can over come this sudden weird feeling is to focus on something and put everything I have into it. Which usually comes done to nit picky cleaning. That is the only thing I have that works off the sudden increased energy and overcomes the over whelming feeling I get.

This part of anxiety/pa is very hard for me to deal with. But I do the best I can.

I know the guilt over the kids things. Oh boy do I. Right now my daughter is grounded until further notice because she flat out lied to me. And refuses to tell the truth. She thinks I'm stupid or something. She had gotten into her email on my computer and left it open. None of the kids are allowed on my computer they have their own. Well I left the page open to show her since I knew she was going to deny it. Well she did. And refuses to fess up. So because of that she is missing out of horse shows and going to the corrals to take care of these horses.
Its her loss and right now she doesn't seem to care. It will be a very long summer for her if she doesn't fess up and her true punishment comes into effect.
It is so hard on me to keep up with this though. She loves the horses and her trainer has spend hundreds of dollars on these shows and the equipment so she can go. I feel horrible. But something has to be done.
One way or another we have to teach our kids. And 90% of the time it is more at our expense then theirs. They will get over it. And it will haunt us for many many years. They don't understand that and wont until they have kids. Then they will see how they treated us and how we felt.
It wasn't until when I had kids did I realize how hard it was for my mom. And I make it up to her every chance I get.

I'm sure with that and the stress of the surgery things are all wacked out of place. Hopefully things will settle once the surgery is done. Why not sit down and chat with your son. Tell him how hard it was for you to do what you had to do. But make sure he also understands you will do it again if he doesn't try his best at school. That way he is on a closer page to how you felt having to do it. But even though it has been horrible for you. You will do it again (that way he still keeps up his grades). It just might bring you 2 closer and he will understand more of what your asking of him.

I am very sorry you are feeling so down today. I hope some of my advice and understanding helps you make it through. Start a journal =) yes the page writing rant..lol It helps soo much. Take a deep breath and remember what you are doing IS the best for your son and the surgery is the best for you.
Your choices are wise and caring. Remember that!!

((((HUGS))))

Hi Selina,

RE the edit, I took out your link as it is no longer in service. If you would like to change your signature in your profile please do.
Now to answer your question, yes I do believe that worrying about the surgery can trigger your panic attacks. It is normal to be concerned about any surgery but to those of us with anxiety we can easily start with the anticipatory anxiety.
Anticipatory anxiety is where a person experiences increased levels of anxiety by thinking about an event or situation in the future. The worries you experience specifically focus on what you think might happen, often with catastrophic predictions about the event. I am sure it was very traumatic to have the implant rupture. Try to stay in the moment and don't start worrying about the surgery. You will get it taken care of and all will be well.

It's really important for myself to be able to stay in the moment. I have found that by avoiding things like dwelling on past or worrying about the future I am usually able to get done what needs to get done when it needs to get done.

If you can learn to stay present in the moment then you can rapidly and gracefully change your life for the better!

“Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow has not yet come. We have only today. Let us begin.”

I am right here for you and I will support you in anyway I can.

Gentle Hugs

Kitt