Posted 6/13/2009 6:58 AM (GMT 0)
I was in a really bad car accident in April. I was hospitalized for two weeks, I'm living a constant panic attack. I can't function. I just got laid off from my job as a result of not being able to return immediately due to my injuries and the psychological affects, which is adding to my anxiety. I broke my pelvis in the accident, it's healing but all I'm consumed with is my limitations, even though I've progressed so much since it happened. I'm going in to have a plastic surgery on my face to take out glass remants and correct my fractured cheekbone, I'm extremely scared of this. I don't want to be in a hospital again, not for one second. I haven't slept for more than 8 combined hours in the past 3 weeks. I've started seeing a therapist who told me that not only do I have a severe anxiety disorder, I'm also suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, and I also am very likely bipolar, as it is extremely prominent in my family. For some reason, hearing all that just makes me more anxious and more stressed out because now I'm terrified of being "crazy" and coping with this. I'm also hell bent on beating this, I've given myself a goal, to at least feel somewhat normal by August, here I am fixated on that goal now. I feel like it's a never ending circle now, I thought the accident was the worst of it, but things just keep getting worse. I know I can get through it though, what other choice do I honestly have?