Switching Therapy

I had my therapy session this morning and have to say, it went so well that I am in a great mood and very hopeful.

My therapist decided that we are going to switch from CBT to insight therapy which will permit me to delve more deeply into my past in order to root out the sources of my anxiety. While she said this won't give the quick fix that CBT would, this will be a better therapy tool for me in the long term. She felt because of my propensity to analyze everything and natural gravitation toward making logical connections between my thoughts, actions and feelings already, that CBT may be too superficial for me. I need something more challenging to make me really think about my issues and be honest with myself. In other words, I need a talk therapy that is more akin to psychotherapy. I'm intrigued, so, I"m going to give it a whirl. It's a longer form of therapy, but I trust my therapist's judgment. She's really great.

Also, it has been determined the celexa is giving me a drug rash :( I am supposed to wean off it. Then we'll reassess whether I need meds at that point. Still going to take the klonopin when I need it though.

Hanging in there and hoping it gets better every day.

Hope everyone is having a nice Tuesday :)

I am really pleased you are finding therapy so helpful and worthwhile and agree it is important to have a good relationship with your therapist as that way it is easier to be hounest with yourself.  Keep up the good work and i wish you all the best.

Ben

Thanks everyone for your support!

I think you're right in your assessment, JK. I am ready to confront the underlying issues that are presenting themselves now as hiccups in my ability to maintain my sanity on a daily basis. I didn't really ever consider how much my childhood and influences from my upbringing affected my self-perceptions, expectiations, relationships, etc because my childhood was wonderful and my parents amazing people. But, it goes to show that when you diverge from the person your parents want you to be, it takes a lot of growing pains for some of us to see that distinction. (I am totally talking about myself, yes.)

I have very perfectionist, successful, anal-retentive parents who had such high expectations and great plans for me that my wants and other components of my personality were either thrown to the wayside or greeted with a "that's a nice hobby, but you don't want to do that forever." Plus, their interference with every relationship I've had with a man is unnerving. I lost someone I loved dearly and was considering marrying because of their view of him as not being good enough for me. I am in a wonderful relationship now and happy and I can see the red flags cropping up already. I'm scared to lose this amazing man like I lost the last one.

Okay, sorry for the verbal dirrhhea...but it feels good to confront things openly.

Aries- I am finding more balance in my life, thank you :) I went camping last weekend and reconnected to myself and the earth. It restored my faith in this life and permitted me to regain perspective. Also saw Coldplay last week (one of my fave bands) which also reminded me of the beautiful things in life. I find so much solace and inspiration in music...especially the cerebral sort.