feeling sad and alone

... the depression is difficult to bear :(... I'm too fat ... I lack abilities and intelligence, what a waste of flesh I've become... it just isn't fair... I hate what I've become. A rolling stone gathers no moss, well now I'm a boulder who's stuck in the ground.

I'm sorry you are feeling bad right now.  It is the worst feeling to sit around and beat yourself up (I do this, too.)  Do you have a therapist or councelor that can work you in? 

I don't know what the deal is with lack of replies.  I know my posts go unresponded to sometimes but I don't take it personally, so I hope you don't either.  I have not logged in to this site in a week or two. 

I hope you find someone to talk to or something to distract you from your sad thoughts. 
Holly