Cant leave my ROOM :-(

 Hello I am a 32 year old woman with 4 beautiful children. On Sept 5 started this Horrible thing called Derealizatiion!! I am terrified of medicine so refused to take the Zoloft and xanax that they had given me. I attend Therapy and Panic group weekly and also see the Dr. I really thought I could doit by myself without the meds. So It just kept getting worse and worse. The derealization was and all day everyday thing. I was so freaked out all the time with the what if's I couldnt concentrate on anything but bad thoughts...What if I have a brain tumor what if I am going to die..I am going crazy and will wake up and not remeber anyone. AWFUL AWFUL. I didnt want to be left alone for one second!!!! On October 25 It got so bad I didnt attend my panic group only to have mymom take me later on up there to speak to the panic therapist who suggested I had been dealing with this long enough.So we decided together that I go to a crisis center.There they helped me get on my Zoloft. I take a half of a 25 mlg.  They want to work me up. So I am back at home now for over a week and I feel a little better not having so much derealization. But I cant seem to come out of my bedroom and dont really want to have a conversation with anyone. I am scared of the bathroom the kitchen and livingroom. I guess that is because that is where all the panic was.? I dont hardly go anywhere and when I do I get all shaky and tingly.I still dont want to be alone at all!!!!I went to my Therapist yesterday and She want to make my panic come on and face it as if was a bully!!! WHAT...I am terrified..I hate the feeling of Derealization and it lasted so long for me and the fear is ao overwhelming...     Please help!! They gave me xanax but I am afraid to take them also! Afraid it will make me feel the derealization again!! I took it once when it was REALLY bad and it didnt help..or maybe I was siked about the meds that I wouldnt let it work..I dont know..I just need to be back to normal and active like I used to be before all this happened. PLEASE anything would be greatly appreciated !!! Thanks so much

Thank you Maz xx !! I am so scared the xanax is going to make me feel funny. Will this happen?? Like the derealization feeling? Is itpossible forit to do that?

That is what I am having...dreamlike sensations..both are very much in common...sorry

Hi! I'm 18 and Derealization and Depersonalization are pretty much what set off my anxiety that I now have. I had both everday pretty much all day, with a few minutes of relief from time to time for the first month. I know how ridiculously scary that can be. For some reason, idk why, it gradually faded away. Now here I am two months after my first panic attack and DP/DR experience and I only feel them now whenever I have very high anxiety, which is a few times a day. My first visit to my doctor was today and they took my blood and I go back on Tuesday. The doc said he was pretty sure that I have an anxiety disorder and will probably put me on anti-anxiety medication, but we will discuss other methods as well. My mom was prescribed Xanax and Zoloft as well and I asked her alot of question about them, because I am pretty much scared of ALL DRUGS! Medical or not, I am afraid of them! Really really afraid! I was never like this before the last two or three months. I'm always afraid medications they are going to make me feel "high" so to speak, or that they are going to mess up my depth perception and ultimately increase my DP/DR! Its sooooo scary. I'm also afraid that they will make me a different person than I was before my anxiety, but in a negative way. Anyways, my mom told me that she only took the Xanax a few times and it just made her feel really sleepy, and that the Zoloft puts her to sleep pretty soon after she takes it(so she takes it before bed). As far as weird sensations she said that they didn't make her feel strange, just drowzy. I'm still skeptical about it because she has OCD due to hormonal levels and had depression for a while. However, she never experienced DP or DR in any way. She thought I was getting things slipped into my drink or something awful when I told her how I felt but then later we found it's common with anxiety. But, she was just always afraid that we were all going to die, which I do that too, but I also question if the world is real and feel like I'm not living my own life. As a matter of fact, I decided to finally go to the doctor bc I started getting to the point that I thought I had every mental illness out there, and was HORRIFIED at the fact that people can have hallucinations. So now I am CONSTANTLY SCARED of having hallucinations and going schizophrenic or something. But as far as those meds go, my mom said she never felt anything weird when she took them.


If i get on either of those then I'll let you know how I feel with them(if I can force myself to take them).





Lots of love and good luck!



You are definitely NOT the only person out there with those thoughts and feelings!