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Posted 3/12/2010 6:32 PM (GMT 0)
So, I started on antianxiety meds two years ago and just recently started weening off on them again. Well over the weekend guess what happend? I was pulled over for an OWI and my anxiety shot through the roof and into space. Im such a mess right now. the thing is, im not a mess about the owi, im thinking back to the date of how i felt when i "thought i might have hiv" back then I had three tests all negative and even made my now fiance take one. (which was also negative)

Becuase of this traumatic event that recently happen all those feelings of shame, guilt, not knowing, all are here and completely ruining my life. I was so over that whole HIV scare thing i was even starting to laugh about it when I talked about it with my fiacne. Now im like second guessing everything and i have the WORST feeling in my stomach. all i want to do is crawl in a hole. Can anyone help me?

Posted 3/12/2010 9:17 PM (GMT 0)
Dear Kate,


I feel the real culprit here may be the OWI ( operating a motor vehicle while intoxicated ) and that is causing you to feel anxious. I am sure it does bring up your old feeling of anxiety but please do deal with this issue of the OWI now as this is a serious problem.



I do hope you have not been drinking while on the antianxiety meds. That could compound your problems. Please take a deep breath and perhaps see your therapist or physician to discuss your jump in anxiety.



Everyone makes errors in judgement and when reality catches up with us we become anxious and wonder how to solve our problems. Do seek out help and know we are here for you.



Gentle Hugs,



Kitt
Posted 3/13/2010 7:01 AM (GMT 0)
Kate,

You didn't mention if you were drinking when you got the "OWI" or if there was some other reason - where I live you can get a "DUI" (Driving Under the Influence) for other things, like marijuana or even even prescription meds.

If you were drinking, you may want to consider going to a few AA meetings. First, It would look good to the courts as you go through the legal issues. Second, you will find then most folks in AA have experienced anxiety and panic problems - it's one of the main reasons behind problem drinking.

I speak from experience. I started drinking to handle my anxiety, got in some trouble over it, went to AA, and found a lot of other people like me. I not only lost the urge to drink but got help with anxiety, panic attacks, anger management, and a host of other issues. I still deal with the anxiety issues, but at least I don't have to deal with the legal and medical fallout of heavy drinking.

Of course if you don't drink regularly, then never mind.

Either way, good luck.
Posted 3/13/2010 7:33 AM (GMT 0)
I'm not a psychologist but it also seems to be that your DUI has somehow brought up this HIV issue again. And as far as that goes, you've been tested and the tests have been negative. Ya don't have it.
Posted 3/13/2010 3:06 PM (GMT 0)
Would like to reinterate about drinking and meds that is dangerous as im sure you are aware..also kitt is spot on imho..stay with us ....lyn
Posted 3/17/2010 12:10 PM (GMT 0)
i had terrible HIV anxiety and understand how completely absorbing it can be. Before i met my current partner (we've been together for about a year and a half) I went through a bad stage just after my dad died and did a lot of silly things. This anxiety about HIV kept creeping up and i finally got tested and it came back saying i didn't have it! I had to ask the nurse to keep showing me the screen with the results on because i didn't trust it.

I think you have to see this anxiety as a big monster trying to grab hold of you - but you know what - SCIENCE has given you SOLID proof that you are healthy and HIV free! That HIV anxiety can't own you at all, you are free of it! Remember that, you are FREE of it, it has no hold on you!

Much like my partner, it sounds like yours is all for helping you out and doing what they have to do to help you through this, so remember they are there for you and they understand.

As for this new wave of anxiety - i think your right that the feelings just remind you of the way you felt before, but like i said, just because it makes you feel the same way, this HIV anxiety still does not belong to you!

With this driving thing, i don't know the circumstances, but maybe if drinking is a problem take this a nothing more then a wake up call to start changing for the better. If drinking isn;t a problem and it was a one off or something else, then just take it as one of those things.

I think the best thing to remember here is, you are a human and you make mistakes, and your aloud to do that. But if the drinking is getting a little much, its ok to need help!
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