Caught in a nightmare of fear and anxiety

I'm caught in a nightmare of fear and anxiety and everywhere I turn is something else to be afraid of. I'm afraid that I'm crazy and that I'll become crazier. I'm scared that I won't get better and I'll be like this forever. I'm afraid that I won't be able to function in life this way. Please just give me some good news and let me know that I am going to be ok. I'm sad and I'm scared and I want someone to hold me and tell me I'm ok and let me cry on their shoulder.. but nobody is here. Please help.

Thank you sailor pizza,

This has just been such a hard battle and it gets hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I've been dealing with this for a while now and some days I am hopeful and resolute and days, like today, I don't want to do anything.

it's just that I was only mildly depressed and I felt weird and I've always been anxious and it was never a problem (save for sometimes lying awake at night being afraid of dying) but when I started to feel depressed, I immediately jumped to "things are not ok, something is wrong with me, I'm not normal, I can't date anyone or do anything this way." After a week of hell, consisting of a panic attack and bed-ridden anxiety and tremors, I was able to calm myself down, adjust and go "ok, im just slightly depressed and im going to get medicine and therapy and im going to be ok." All along that process I felt tense and worried, constantly saying "I'm going to be ok, I'm going to be ok." and I was pretty ok, then I got the news that my dad had leukemia around the same time I started taking Budeprion SR and my anxiety went BANANAS. I went off the medicine... felt better but not cured. I went back on the medicine and was not anxious for a couple days and then my dad had to be rushed to the hospital with a neutrapeanic fever and now he's gonna be in the hospital, out of work for six months and we might lose the house. Now I'm terrified and scared of losing hope and going crazy and never getting back to my life and the way I once was.

For now just put one foot in front of the other...
Things have a way of turning around-all the best to you that they do quickly!

totesmcgrotes

Anxiety can be hell in all its physical and mental forms. However, never give up on yourself. I have endured  anxiety for two years ago this month. I was in the process of buying my first house and stressed and had a panic attack and since then it has been one heck of a ride. The insomnia, the chest pain, head pressure, Headaches, muscle twitching, the worrying etc, I have experience and still experience but I look at it different now it does not have the same hold on me it did at first. I have been to the doctor numerous times since my initial panic attack. And I am in generally good health for a 37 y/o. So unless they have missed something its up to me to change. Thats the empowering part you have the ability to make changes in your life and regain a sense of control that anxiety takes away.