I want to go to work!

You would'nt feel as if you let everyone down if you lost days as a result of a chronic illness that affected you just physically would you? If you are doing everything you can to treat your anxiety, and it is still debilatating, then you have noththing to be guilty about. Try to push through the moderate anxiety days, so that you can stay home on the unbearable ones. I find that if I throw myself into work, I get distracted and do well, but everyone is different-this may not work for someone else or you. Just a thought...do you work under flourescent lighting at the post office? I have trouble in this lighting. It makes my vision wonky, I get dizzy, and that can try to trigger an attack. I say try, because once I figured this out-I realized it was just cause and effect of the lights, and I could calm myself and avoid a full-blown attack. This may seem out of left feild, but you really have to consider all possible triggers, and you're having trouble at work (90% of offices have flouescents) who knows?
Please take care, and hope you have a better day today!
Scaredy Cat

Scaredy Cat, yes we do have flourescent lighting at the post office. I didn't know it could cause such havoc, maybe that's what's doing it. It's everywhere---the ceiling, the cases, you name it. Right now I'm having panic attacks so bad I can't leave the house, so I've called my Pdoc about a change in medication (maybe it's not working anymore).
Kitt, sounds like you went through exactly what I'm going through---crying all the way to work, pleading for help from God, having my husband drive me.
I have GAD, Moderate Depressive Disorder and Panic Disorder, OCD and likely PTSD from what I've gone through working 20 years for an entity that doesn't care what happens to you or how you're treated.
My computer is sick (graphics card doesn't have enough Direct X or something like that) so I'd best sign off before it gives another blue screen of death.
I love you guys and thanks for the support, I won't keep banging my head against the wall (figuratively) about letting people down.
Camylou

I don't know if it's good, bad, somewhere in between, or neither, because I've yet to have treatment from a psychologist/psychiatrist, but the only thing I've found that helps me out in the more severe situations is exactly what you're doing--relaxing/sleeping and being with the people I love. I've got my fingers crossed for you that tomorrow (or sooner!) is your day ^_^