We went to the doctor yesterday and got new test results, they say my husband's heart muscle is dying and his heart is only beating at 15 percent now, they said the prognoses is grim he can have a massive heart attack at any time they gave us any where from a week but no more then 5 years, he is still filling up with water the pills don't seem to be helping much, only good thing is the water is in his feet and legs and not his lungs this time like it was when he was in the hospital at Christmas time.
I am freaking out my anxiety has been a 10 since we got home from Dr on Monday, blurry vision, dizzy, not real feeling, cant breath name it I have it. I need to be strong for him but I am so tired, now everything is on my shoulders and after all the years of fighting anxiety my shoulders are a lot smaller. Thank you for letting me vent. If anything happens to him I just don't know what I am going to do. 