Well I finally have my wisdom teeth ripped out of my skull and jaw bone at 9:50am. The beginning of the end for this mess.
It's 2:15am. I can't have anything to eat or drink six hours before the surgery, so I'm planning to stay up, smoke cigarettes, and drink soda and water until 3:50am. Then I want to stay up longer. I want to be good and tired when I go in, because when I had my gallbladder out they said I'd sleep all day but I didn't even feel like napping. I'd like to experience as little as possible tomorrow.
I'm not too worried about
the procedure, really. For the past week or so I have been feeling pretty good most of the time, with short bursts of intense pain. But I know they have to come out. It's the other things that concern me. Smoking. I have to quit, and I want to quit, but it's complicated. I still enjoy it. And I absolutely hate it at the same time. The smell in the air, the smell in my clothes, the blood pressure, the cost, and it even turns stuff yellow. Tired of all that, but if there's even a part of me that still enjoys it, it's going to be challenging. And so that I don't gain anymore weight (can't exercise after surgery and quitting smoking causes weight gain), I'm only going to drink water from now on out. No soda, no juice...just water. That should save some empty calories. But the nicotine and caffeine withdrawal together...hm. I figure I'll have some headaches so it's probably best to do it while I have heavy pain killers.
I'm trying to look at this in a positive light. It could be a chance for a fresh start. Eat and drink healthier, no smoking, exercise on a schedule once my mouth is healed. I did a lot to make my anxiety better, but I never really took that last step which was to treat my body right. In fact, I kind of went the other way. Need to get things on track.
So wish me luck.
Post Edited (debaser) : 3/28/2011 1:33:42 AM (GMT-6)