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Posted 3/29/2011 11:11 PM (GMT 0)

Because of my anxiety my mom took me out of my middle school. So now im being homeschooled. My mom is my teacher. My mom is purposly trying to make me miserable doing homeschooling(i know it,she says"if you dont like me being your teacher you can go back to school").Its just that her plan is to make me miserable at home so i will want to go back to school. The only problem is that every morning when i went to school i would have several panic attacts. This has been a issue ever scince i can remember. It got really bad when i was kicked out of my school in 5th grade. I also have severe depression and my anxiety is clinical. I see a therapist but my mom moved my appointment to every week to everymonth and i dont think i can handle that. Im on medication. I am miserable and just dont know if i can take it anymore, i just cant!!!!

Posted 3/30/2011 2:43 AM (GMT 0)
its ok...i know how you feel. we are in the same place
Posted 3/30/2011 2:51 AM (GMT 0)
ask you mom to change your appointments back!.and try to keep your head high! easier said than done, I know...
Posted 3/30/2011 2:59 AM (GMT 0)
Barbie,

I don't know if this will make you feel any better, but I had the same issues with anxiety when I was your age and your story really got my attention. When I was in 4th and 5th grade, I threw up literally every morning in school because I was so anxious. It was extremely embarrassing and I was already a shy kid. It came to the point where the clinic lady didn't even bother calling my parents. She just made me lay down for half an hour and then sent me back to class. I remember hearing teachers talking one time about how they didn't know what to do with me. It was terrible! The worst part is that despite all of this, my parents refused to recognize that anything was wrong with me and never took me to get help. I had to figure out how to control the anxiety all on my own - or risk being the hated kid who throws up all the time for the rest of my life. When I got to middle school, I still threw up a lot, but I very gradually learned how to control it.

The thing that helped me the most was learning how to focus on what was happening right now and not let myself think about what might happen later in the day. To do this, I would often stare at the drain on the floor of the bathroom or the patterns in a tile and force myself to think about only that one thing that I was looking at and nothing else. It is not easy, but if you practice it, you will get better at it. In a way, you have to learn to put yourself in a sort of trance. You have to force your mind to only think about what is going on right in front of you.

Another thing that I noticed was that the more tired I was, the more anxious I would be in the mornings. Try getting as much sleep as you can at night and that might help to make it a little easier to cope.

If nothing else, I hope you get out of this post that there is hope and that you can get through this. I am now a pretty successful college student. I went from being absolutely terrified of being in school to now not minding it so much. Yes, I still have anxiety, but I have learned to manage it and live a pretty normal life. Trust yourself and know that you are strong and you can do this. Let me know if you need someone to talk to in the future.

toutserabon
Posted 3/30/2011 3:35 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Barbie and welcome. I am sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time right now. I didn't have severe anxiety until I was an adult, so I can't imagine trying to deal with it at your age! My heart goes out to you.

You need an advocate for yourself. Can you contact your therapist, doctor, school counselor or pastor? Perhaps if you explained the severity of your anxiety to them, and the fact that your parents don't seem to understand it, they could help you!

At the very least, you could show some of the posts here to your
mother so she could get an understanding just how much people are affected by this disorder. It is not something that you are making up, of something that you can just snap out of! It is treatable, but you really need the weekly therapy sessions, and possibly the help of a doctor for medication.

I hope that you and your mother can come to an understanding, and you can get the help that you need. Post anytime that you want/need to. I hope that you will find this a helpful and supportive place:)

Take care,
Scaredy Cat
Posted 4/1/2011 11:39 AM (GMT 0)
Magnesium is a good nerve tonic. As much as 65% of people are magnesium deficient. Research the foods that are high in Mag. and try to eat more of those.

Gem
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