help

hi im a new member here and i usually talk on the depression forum only

but i also have had panic attacks in the past and present and they are usually because of

my mother

the time when i had a really bad panic attack is when my mother was verbal abusing me and it happen twice

i was scared to death it felt like a asthma attack and every time i have them i think im going to loose my mind

and the recent one i had was when i was in the shower.

my mother doesnt realize what she does to me or my sisters

like when my 15 year old sister decided to run away from home my mother had the nerve to take everything out on everybody else in the house she is constantly making me cry when shes mad about somthing

i understand that people are mad somtimes but when people start making you feel useless

because they have a problem with their life is a whole other level

Hi R7 and welcome. Yes relationship stress can be hard to deal with, especially in regards to anxiety and depression. I have had many bouts of anxiety sparked by interpersonal conflict.
Perhaps during an argument, if you start to feel overwhelmed, you and your mom could have a cool down period to allow you both to become calm. Then with a little time and space between you, conflict resolution may be easier to achieve, with less anxiety fallout.
Explaining to your mom how the fighting effects you, and coming up with an impovement plan for your confrontations will show her that you are mature, care about the relationship and want your interactions together to be as positive as possible.
You can't choose your family, and later on in life, you will be stuck with other people not of your choosing. (co-workers, friend's friends, extended in-law family members, ect...) Learning to deal now with relationships that take some hard work is good practice. It will shape how the other connections work, or don't work out for you later on;)
Good luck, and post anytime,
Scaredy Cat