Am I crazy or just hyper vigilant?

I don't know if I'm crazy and am headed back to the psych ward or I'm just too hyper vigilant from my anxiety? I swear I keep seeing stuff move out of the corner of my eye and when I look to see what it is its nothing. It's just junk like toys for example.

I also walked into my daughters room and the light was off and the nightlight was on and for a second I thought I saw a baby on the bed and then I took a second glance and it was just her jumbled up blankets.

I don't know what to think. For some moments I'm zoning out and then I start freaking out that I'm losing touch with reality.

My intrusive thoughts are bad this weekend because I am trying to get better with being alone with my daughter and my fiance and I are fighting nonstop. We just aren't getting along and I feel like my relationship is just going down the toilet. It's so depressing. I didn't even shower today and just ate junk food. I feel like a slob.

Am I crazy? Am I headed back to the psych ward? Help....

-Twiggygal

Hi TG, I am sorry that you are having a bad weekend! I have the same feeling of seeing things out of the corner of my eyes when I am really stressed. I even remember having this before I struggled with chronic anxiety. I have also heard that this is a common stress-related sensation.

I agree with Kitt that your recent disharmony with your fiancee is most likely causing your increase in anxiety. Also, since you have just recently made so many milestones in your recovery, you are probably stressing more about having a setback.

No one wants to have a setback, but they happen. Try to accept it as what it is, just a temporary break in the forward momentum. You will gain your footing again, and continue on the path to healing!

A little distance for you both might be a good idea until things cool off. Practice your coping mechs during this time, and keep posting!

Hugs,
S.C.

I agree with what everyone else here wrote. I see things move out of the corner of my eye all the time and have often wondered, like you, if I'm completely losing it. I've just decided that it's just some trick of vision and don't let it get to me. I also will see things that aren't there as you described. We used to have a dog, and ever since he passed, I think I see him laying on the couch or sitting on the arm of the chair as he had a habit too. Again, I just think it's just a trick of vision, but definitely not any sign of losing touch with reality. I also agree that your high anxiety is a result of the fights with your fiancee. I'm the same way, very soft skinned and tender hearted and get hurt very easily and when my husband and I fight, I get my feelings hurt and then get anxious, especially if we aren't speaking for a while. Are you still in therapy? Maybe talking to someone will help. Hope things get better soon.