Family trip without me

Hi H & S, I have been in your situation before, but I didn't have a choice in whether to go or not. I have panicked my way to Lake Tahoe and all through Disneyland...How do you tell your family that Mommy can't go to the 'Panic Kingdom' because she has had an anxiety attack the night before and thought she was going to literally die?

This was in the early stages of my disorder, and I didn't really know what was going on. I hadn't even consulted with a dr. yet, and I thought there must be something seriously wrong with me.

So I just went along, semi-frozen with fear, but trying to play it off for everyone like I was fine. I survived both trips, but it was rough.

I think that you staying behind is a personal decision that you made, and only you could make that decision. Perhaps you can use the quiet time to rest and work on recovery while everyone is out of the house. Try not to feel guilty or remorseful...you did what was best for you at this time.

There will be other trips in the future when you are in a better place health-wise. If you get down, or sad...just remember the long, crapmped car ride...grab a good book and glass of iced tea, and enjoy the peace ;)

Be well,
S.C.

H & S,

I have had the same experiences with not having a choice and when I got home and relaized I made it I felt good about me.

I was in high anxiety all the way to the Black Hills a few years ago with my hubby and was in tears begging him to take me back home.  He kept saying one more hour and see how you feel.  Then I would ask him to just talk at me about anything which helped me calm down.  By late afternoon we were at the half way mark and he asked what I thought  ?  I said lets spend the night here as planned and see how the morning is.  By morning I thought I made it half way, let's just do it.  Believe it our not I had a good time.  I have GERD, Anxiety and IBS.  I bought myself some black hills gold as a reward.

Another time I almost attacked a waitress in a restaurant because I got anxious and we were ready to leave but did not have our price ticket.  I finally had to go sit in the car just to get out of the situation.  I had been fine all week-end at a lovely resort but the closer I got to home the more I wanted to be there "right now".

Try exercising while you are house sitting.

Take a walk, play a game of basketball, or ride a bike. The point is to exercise because when you do, your body will release endorphins, which contribute to feeling good.

Take care of you,

Kitt

Hi H&S, I didn't know that you moved...did it just happen? That is great and sounds like it is a much better environment:) I have to admit, I was wondering why you would even want to go on vacation w/ your aunts, because it did not sound as if you were happy living there;p

Well no wonder you are bummed out...but like I said before, you made the decision that was best for your health at this time.

I am wondering if the more positive change in your living situation may help to improve your physical well being? You never know, and can always hope!

Hope the rest of the weekend is finding you well.
S.C.

H & S,

I am glad you are making it housesitting for you sister.  I am a bit confused on who you refer to as family as well as where you live. Perhaps it would help if you clarify for us so we can follow your post better.

I know you were living with the aunts and cousins and they expected you to work for them as you were not employeed. Before that you lived with family that did not understand you, " but its really hard when i live with family that treat me like this."

We are here for you and if venting helps you then do vent away.

Kindly,

Kitt