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Posted 8/1/2011 4:07 AM (GMT 0)
Hi everyone, well today I have to go and get some test results that I have been dreading....I have a bad family history of a certain disease which I won't mention because I know that I'm not the only one on here with health anxiety and I don't want to heighten anyone elses anxiety...

I'm so scared, please all send me positive vibes and prayers, I feel so alone, my hubby couldn't come with so I had to come on my own I wish someone was here to hold my hand.... cry Sorry I'm being such a baby today but I really am scared..ok I'm just about to go in I will post back later...send me some hugs ok guys.....your friend shannon sad
Posted 8/1/2011 4:27 AM (GMT 0)
I am holding your hand across the miles Shanny! I have been there before, waiting to find out about a result, and thinking the worst. Try not to worry about the what if's...it is wasted energy and tough on the body and mind. Every time your brain goes into worry mode, try a distracting diversion.

Everything will be okay. Take deep breaths and know that your family here is thinking of you right now!

Let us know how it goes.

Peace and calm,
S.C.
Posted 8/1/2011 7:16 AM (GMT 0)
Shannon you are in my prayers, I hope you are feeling better :)
Posted 8/1/2011 7:37 AM (GMT 0)
Hello my darling friends well you wouldn't believe it! I got to the drs which is a two hour drive from home to be told my dr was in theatre and that they would have to reschedule my appointment till the 12th of august...... shocked

They have my test results there but wouldn't give them too me..well I lost it I started crying I hyperventilated, I was a wreak, I couldn't believe it...now I have to wait another eleven days to get the results.. shakehead Between crying and not breathing properly I just had to walk out of there...I can usually keep myself under control in public, but I just completely lost control, they know I have anxiety issues and they just didn't care....

They said if there is a cancelation i will get in sooner but you know I got so worked up..I feel just shattered now..so tired....

Thank you for your lovely words and scaredy cat thank you for your beautiful post, you are all my family and I love and appreciate that you care so much for me......I'm so tired now feel like a bus has hit me....I'm going to have a hot bath and try to calm down and not worry for another 11 days.....hugs to you all Shannon...
Kso sad sad sad
Posted 8/1/2011 9:16 AM (GMT 0)
Shanny63,

I am so sorry that happened to you regarding your appointment. I would have broke down too. I just wanted you to know that you will be in my prayers, I'm holding your hand from a distance, but with you emotionally and mentally. Hang in there.

Your Healingwell Friend,

Serenitee

Posted 8/1/2011 9:29 AM (GMT 0)
Thank you serenitee, I had a hot bath put my pj's on and am sitting with my fluffly puppies....I have calmed down a bit....I just had myself so worked up today and then to be told I have to wait again to get the results....well it was all too much...

I will just have to wait the 11 days and try not to stress too much.....I'm so mad at the dr... mad He could have just given the results to the nurses..I don't know I'm just venting but sometimes people don't think about what they put other people through, they know I'm a very anxious person, and for a person with health anxiety to have to wait is torture...my mind can conjure up the worst case scenario in five minutes so I will have to do extra relaxation for the next 11 days and keep my mind busy..

Thanks for letting me vent honey, and thank you for holding my hand from a distance....best wishes to you and I hope you are doing well.....shannon

:-)
Posted 8/1/2011 10:32 AM (GMT 0)
Shanny
I truly feel for your situation, anxiety or not I believe this would really upset just about anyone. While going through reprogramming myself I got pretty good at finding something positive about every negative thing that would happen....drove my kids crazy, everytime they thought it was the end of the world cause something didn't go there way...good ole dad would bring to light a positive spin.

Here is the deal...this went really bad for you and yes you will have to endure the 11 days....with help from your friends you will get through this. This is a mountain to get over and you will. what will be gained is, the next time something happens similar to this....you will have experience to draw from. You will know you did it before and can do it again!

This is a challane you weren't ready for nor did you want. Do your best not to think negative about the results.....I know you have many skills, so lets put them to use...work on relaxation techniques and breathing....push out all the negatives you can out and replace with positives. I believe you can make it through this just fine and the next time someone throws a mountain in front of you.....it just might look more like a mole hill. You have the chance for growth here...a true personal victory, new found courage you didn't know you had...It's getting past things like this and making it through that propel us down the road of recovery. Don't look at this as a bad thing...it is totally your choice. So pick up your sword and shield...look this ugly anxiety thing square in the eye and let it know....IT DOESN'T OWN YOU...YOU OWN IT!....we will join you in celebration 12 days from now for your accomplishment!....everyone bring a dish, we're throwing a little party.

I'm making it through this horrible anxiety thing and pulling your hand to go with me, so grab on and lets ROLL!.
Your friend through recovery....Wingman (Benny)
Posted 8/1/2011 11:12 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Benny..what a fabulous post you made me smile...:)) now that is an achievement after the day I've had...ok let's look at the positives...if the results were really bad I don't think the dr would wait another 11 days to give me the results, he would call me sooner....ok he had an emergency today so obviously someone else needed him more than me....and ok I will have have to wait another 11 days, but sometimes I am very impatient so maybe this challenge was sent to teach me patience...And it's true I do think in the negative a lot when it comes to my health, I must start thinking more positive if I want to overcome this anxiety...and you know what I have anxiety it doesn't have me...thank you Benny so much, I'm hanging on to your hand ok and we will celebrate in 12 days ok.......your friend Shannon
Posted 8/1/2011 11:25 AM (GMT 0)
And Benny if you see me posting negative stuff about this issue over the next 11 days foot me up the bum ok.....I have to make it thru this and I must stay strong...I can't let this anxiety overpower me again....and I can't make everyone around me suffer because of my anxiety.......hugs shannon
Posted 8/1/2011 2:23 PM (GMT 0)
Okay, here's one for the language barrier 'over the pond'! When you were told your dr. was at the theatre, I immediately assumed that he was at the movies! I thought what kind of dr. makes appointments and then goes off for personal recreation, seriously! I was really shocked that a professional would do such a thing, and was going to suggest you look for a new physician pronto!

I read your last post though and realized that you were probably talking about an operating theatre! LOL! Phew, I got all worked up for nothing...as long as he's not eating popcorn and licorice, he is off the hook from my wrath!

But the situation is still tough for you, so I am sorry. You are absolutely right in that if your results weren't okay, he would have you in right away, not over a week from now:)

WM had awesome advice and you will get through this! If you want to e-mail me, feel free, it's in my profile.

Talk to you soon,
S.C.
Posted 8/1/2011 9:13 PM (GMT 0)
Hi scaredy Cat, you are funny, no he had an emergency operation to do..if he was sitting eating popcorn I would have probably killed someone...lol...I forget that we use different words over here....like we say mum and over in America it's mom....well I had a good sleep, got to work today so that will keep my brain busy and out of mischief....talk soon Shannon :-)
Posted 8/2/2011 12:06 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Shannon,

 Think of this...... If your test came back bad dont you think your dr. would of called you already?????  Im sure he still goes in the office and looks at whatever results comes in for his patients. :-)    so remember..... No news is Good News !  idea Also, if you are really worried about them you you call first thing in the morning and ask to speak to you Dr. A.S.A.P.  that you spent two hours on the road going there to find out that you had to reschedule and take two hours to get back home.  Thats 4 hours out of your day!  and that you want to speak to him.  If he had to do surgery they should of called you and notified you, not make you go there for nothing.

I will keep you in my prayers

bam

Posted 8/2/2011 8:31 AM (GMT 0)
Hey Shannon,

I think everything is going to be just fine :) Keep busy for these next 11 days and do some things you enjoy. Like others have said think positive. If there was something seriously wrong with you i don't think your doctor would potentially let it go untreated for 11 days.
Posted 8/2/2011 8:43 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks ash and bam, your right if it was something bad I'm sure he would have rang me...I called his surgery and asked them to get him to call me but they said he doesnt give results over the phone...grrrrr....so I will have to wait.....I am keeping busy, and keeping my mind busy....how are you ash I haven't heard from you for a while? You must be doing great then...good......hugs to you both shannon
Posted 8/2/2011 1:53 PM (GMT 0)
Hey Shanny,

I know how hard it is to wait for test results and how we prepare for the worst and hope for the best.  I have had many tests and worried myself sick by reading to much into something a Dr. may have said until like you I just break down in tears.  I will admit the tears help let off some of the feelings of anxiety.

Unlike my  partner in crime, the  scaredy cat lady,  I knew what theatre was and I also know that A&E stands for Accident and Emergency accross the pond smhair .  I think perhaps SC and I should take a trip across the pond and indulge in afternoon tea or perhaps high tea.  "Giggle" I think someone put something in my tea.

Thinking of you and I know that you will make it through until the 12th.  Keep on talking with us as we are good therapy.

Gentle Hugs,

Kitt

Posted 8/2/2011 2:26 PM (GMT 0)
That trip sounds lovely!  Do you think that all of our luggage will fit in the renal car's boot?  I'll be sure to wear my braces so my pants don't fall down.  I hope we don't get stuck in the lift on the way to tea...and finally 'Will someone please direct me to the loo?  I really have to go!"

*giggle*

Until we take that hop across Kitt, I will have to brush up with my Victorian literature, and BBC programs turn

S.C.

Shanny, thanks for indulging us and letting us be silly and laugh about our linguistic differences...I hope you have a peaceful, anxiety free day!

 

Posted 8/2/2011 10:14 PM (GMT 0)
Hey scaredy cat and kitt, you too are a hoot...that means your funny...it is funny our different sayings....I have a American friend and she always says I just need to find a bathroom when were out, well in australia the bathroom is not where the loo is so I'm always asking her what do you need the Bathroom for?

And she wears a little bag around her waist I call it a bum bag, she calls it a fanny pack....lol

Oh well it takes all of us to make one big crazy world doesnt it.....best wishes your friend shannon
Posted 8/3/2011 4:29 AM (GMT 0)
OMGsh...Australia, not UK! I forgot! shocked Well I guess that is a bit different considering you are the complete opposite direction, and have your very own continent and all!

Kitt...we're gonna need a bigger boat smilewinkgrin
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