I am still having a great deal of difficulty going shopping and out to dine.
Yesterday I decided to be brave and hit Sams Wholesale. I started walking around with a cart and the dizzies started in. my room mate mention taking one of the motorized carts around. I am not fat and love to walk but the dizzies make it impossible for me to feel comfortable. So, away I went in one of those carts........It was nice, I didn't feel too dizzy. I felt somewhat embarrased because I am perfectly capable of walking but yet I needed to use a cart. I kept telling myself that who cares and whatever it takes. After shopping we decided to go out for a light dinner. I knew this was really going to be a challenge but I am tired of disappointing my room mate. We managed to pick a quiet place and it wasn't busy at all. Two months ago I wouldn't of had a problem with this. It didn't go too well. Unfortunately I started to feel really dizzy and not at all hungry. I managed to sit at the table for around 10 minutes and then I was headed for the car. I am not taking any medicine. I was taking a small dose of xanax daily (a quarter of a .25)
It helps but i don't want to take anything!!!! I can not take antidepressents, too many horrible side effects. So, I am starting Therapy on Wednesday. I really need to let go of this fear. It doesn't matter if it's related to my illness, vestibular vertigo or anxiety, I need to get this under control. Or, from what I've read let it go and not control it. I went through all of this last year and now it's back!!!!! Take care all....LULU