obsessed about ocd...HELP!

Hi everyone! so excited to be on this forum. I'm really overwhelmed right now with my ocd. Apparently my doctor and psychologist diagnosed me with it, yet i am doubting that reality! Let me tell you'll something, I over ANALYZE EVERYTHING. Sorry if i'm rambling! But, here's a few of my though patterns that are because of my ocd:

1. i check my pant zipper at least 3 times before i leave the bathroom
2. i never believe i entered in the right password for my school website account! I ALWAYS think that the CAPS button is on on the keyboard!
3. when i walk down a busy hallway such as in a school, i rarely look at people directly in the face because i think that they are looking at me in a negative way, and they are making fun of me. (so i always make sure before i go in to the actual building that i look in the mirror for stains on my shirt, food stains on face, and how my hair looks).
4. I am a perfectionist when it comes to my school work. It takes me FOREVER to complete an assignment because i'm constantly doubting if i know all there is to know on that subject!
5. when i'm really nervous, i wash clothes, clean my room, and organize my external environment constantly.
6. at night time, i am constantly thinking about what i will be doing for atleast the next 2 weeks. After a lot of thinking, i find that i don't get much sleep!!
7. I sometimes have strange and sudden thoughts like when i see a knife i imagine cutting my arm or kneck. EEk!! I know, this is wierd. (it's not like i'll actually do this). I also, when driving on the freeway, imagine running into a car or into the ledge on the road.
8. A while back, i used to pass by strangers in public and (mentally and silently) say a cuss word to the person passing by me. They were people i didn't know from adam. Does anyone ever experience this???
9. When it comes to dieting and eating right, my thought pattern goes like this: If i eat a morsel of bad food NOW, then it will be a snow ball effect from here on. I see myself down the road with diabetes, unable to bare children, and really sick...oh, and dying young."
10. my purse is super organized.
11. I often think: "because my room is cleaned, this means my life is in order." (by the way, you should see my room!)
12. I overanalyze my thinking in the sense that i think i might have mental problems....IN ESSENCE, I AM A PHILOSOPHER AT HEART! LOL!

Hey Thinking,

First off, welcome to the boards! I'm relatively new as well, and already the forum has helped me to chill out a bit, and at least know that there are others going through what I am. It's a really great support here, and I'm glad that you've decided to join. =)

As Cat said, OCD tends to be a way to cope with the emotional/mental anxiety going on, and that by adjusting your surroundings or focusing on something outside yourself, you feel like everything is all right. The fact that you mentioned needing to clean when you feel anxious is a definite sign of this.

It's great that you are seeing a therapist, and I would tend to believe two professionals when they diagnose you with something like this considering your admitted behaviors. I'm sure there are plenty of others out there going through what you are right now, and while it is difficult to deal with anxiety sometimes, know that you are NEVER alone with it. =)

Hope to see you more around the forums!

--Best wishes,
Em