Time to check in!!

How is everyone doing? Tell us what you have been doing, how you are feeling and what's new with you. Tell us what's good and/or bad. We all care!!

There are many members we have not heard from in a while--to name a few--

SoSickAndTired, Hibee (Ben), Codename Wallaby, Mike619er, violetblue, BluAngel, jamiee, awty and everyone check in as we want to hear from you.

Hoping to see many posts here as this is a great time of you to say hello,  ask for support and give support.

Love and hugs,

Kitt

 

Hey everybody, figured I'd throw up my updates as well. =)

The last couple of days things have been going pretty positively for me. I was able to go out today to get a car part, as well as go to Kmart and both places I had to wait (thankfully with my mom) for a bit in lines. That's where I tend to have the most trouble, or shopping in general --especially just browsing, which I used to LOVE doing. I find that even though it's no longer sending me into full panic mode, which is great, I still get feelings of derealization, and even though I know that I'm acting normal and giving appropriate responses (even jokes!) I just feel like it's not me, or that I'm trapped in my head and seeing everything through a glass pane. It's like I go into autopilot, and I really hate feeling that way. I just want to be able to enjoy things fully again, and not have to worry about fainting (my original fear) or shaking and stuttering.

Things are progressing forward, for which I am very, very grateful for. I am also extremely thankful that I was able to move back home, and I know that if I were still alone in Chicago I would not have progressed nearly as far as I have. After all, I can now take a shower without crying, so, that's great! haha, the things we fear, right? Anxiety is such a weird, weird thing.

I also find myself actually WANTING to get out and do things now, and it's been a very long time since I've felt that way. I'm ready to kick things up to the next level, and hopefully when my school money gets in I can set up an appointment for CBT. I found a couple of therapists that look appropriate for me, and one of them has free consultations before actually starting the therapy, so I think that's fantastic. Just sort of playing the waiting game for now, but I'm really excited and very hopeful for this. I'm also going through the MoodGYM stuff, and while I haven't gotten very far yet, I can tell it's going to be beneficial.

I'm just so ready to be myself again, better than my old self, even (I fully believe that I have anxiety because I did not like who I was becoming), and I'm just really excited for the New Year to get here, and of course Christmas. I even was able to help my mom decorate out front, which I know even just a month ago I would not have wanted to do because it involved a lot of standing and being at least moderately active (untangling all those lights was quite the ordeal!).

I'm so glad that I've found this forum, and even reading through older posts really helps me. I check in every day (okay, several times a day, haha), and it always makes me feel better to know that there are other people out there that know what I'm going through and can offer support, love, and advice.

I really just want to throw up a big THANK YOU to everyone on the forum. You're all beautiful people, even if we haven't met yet, and I know that we'll all be able to get well together.


--Love and best wishes,
Em

Kitt

Glad to here you are doing better that is good news. What medication are you changing to? I hope that all goes smoothly for you do let us know how you get on with that.

Well done also for getting through your pdoc appointment they can be anxiety provoking. Sounds like a good idea to celebrate afterwards what kind of pie you have? Pumpkin bread that sounds interesting if you send some over to sunny Scotland I will exchange it for some Haggis lol.

Your Friend

Hibee