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Posted 1/28/2012 1:21 AM (GMT 0)
my doc just left says i need to have surgery tomorrow. my  heart feels like it is going to jump out of my chest, i didn't tell my kids that i was in the hospital because i didnt want them to worry now i have to call them and i know there going to be pissed that i didnt let them know i was in the hospital. i feel like i am going crazy i just want to pull out the iv and get out of here!!! thanks for letting me vent, the nurse is on her way with a shot of ativan hopefully it works!!!! eyes
Posted 1/28/2012 1:51 AM (GMT 0)
Starlight

definately call your children and let them know where you are at. They will be ticked but they need to know.

I hope the ativan worked.

Nice meeting you
Betsey
Posted 1/28/2012 5:18 AM (GMT 0)
I am sorry to hear that you need surgery SL. Those are never words that you want to hear, but it is going to help you to be better, and you will do great throughout the procedure.

We will be here when you are able to post again, so let us know how it all goes. Rest and recover first and foremost, but know that we are a part of your support group, and will be here cheering you on, when you return.:)

I will send postive thoughs and prayers for you, your surgical team/nurses and your family!!!

Talk to you soon,

S.C.
Posted 1/28/2012 5:58 PM (GMT 0)
Atavin will work to calm you down. Whatever you need surgery, for  im sure your kids will understand and want you to get well
Posted 1/28/2012 9:37 PM (GMT 0)
just writing to tell you that though surgery was long it was a sucsess. the doctor had to do an emergency colostmy which i have been putting off for years, but i am told it will improve my quality of life. i am on a morphine drip and 2mgs of ativan every 2to3 hours for my p/a. my family thinks the p/a is all in my head and i spend so much time and effort trying to hide my p/a i am constantly exausted. i just wanted to say thanks for the best wishes and once again how grateful i am that i found you all!!!!!  this forum has changed my life and given me hope that i have not had in years smilewinkgrin thankyou doesn't seem to be enough but it is all i have.meds are kicking in so huggs to all. you are all in my thoughts and prayers. oh by the way my name is rose, once again thanks hope is the best gift you could give to anyone!!!!! yeah
Posted 1/29/2012 5:32 AM (GMT 0)
OMGsh! I can't believe how quickly you posted after your surgery! I am glad it went so well, and I hope that you continue to heal and recover. Thank you for keeping us updated, but be sure to rest and take it easy too!

Well, I am proud of you for getting through all of that. You were very brave, and I know that I wouldn't have done half so well! I hope that the colostomy will make things healthier and better all around for you. We have a great ostomy forum here at HW...but I don't want to lose you to them, so be sure and post with us as well:)

Get well soon, stay low and let your body get the rest and healing it needs. I wish you the best adjusting to your new ostomy and the changes in general...I hope that they are all positive.

Let us know how you are doing when you feel up to it.:)

Hugs and high fives,

Scaredy Cat
Posted 1/29/2012 6:02 AM (GMT 0)
I hope you don't mind me 'stalking' you...but I checked and it looks like you have received some great help from Ivy in Crohn's, and that you have found the ostomy room...

I just want to make sure that you are getting all the help that you can here. :)

You are in our thoughts and prayers,

S.C.
Posted 1/29/2012 8:04 AM (GMT 0)

Stalk away, i need all the advice and friends that i can right now, i think i am driving the nurses crazy they don't understand why i am not out of it. i don't know if others with anxiety and panic are like thisor not, i seem to have a very high tolerence for meds even the doc who came to see me tonight or last night asked me if i had problems with anxiety because of the way i reacted to the stuff they used to put me to sleep. my mind just keeps racing with these crazy thoughts like will i ever be able to wear jeans or if i will ever be able to go out to eat in public again when i should be sleeping.  thanks or everything, Rose

Posted 1/29/2012 3:59 PM (GMT 0)
Rose,

Oh my gosh,  I am so sorry I missed this thread until just now.   Please accept my sincere apology.  blush

First of all I understand your freaking out over the news pre-op as I have gone through this with my Hubby and his Crohn's.  I was so very relieved to read that your surgery is over and you are on the road to recovery. 

As for meds, I am like you as my body seems to metabolize the meds fast and therefore it will take higher doses of some medications for me when using the pain or benzo drugs.  This is very normal as each person is different so you have my permission to drive the nurses crazy.  :-)

You may feel anxious, nervous, or scared when you first start to care for your colostomy. You may not like the way your body looks. You may feel like you are no longer in control of your body. These are normal feelings.

I have read about jeans called pajama jeans but truly do not know a lot about them.  They may be worth checking out and I am going to post you a link to Amazon.com who does carry them. 

http://www.amazon.com/Pajama-Jeans-Knit-Style-Denim-Pockets-/dp/B004HWF5AM/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1327852402&sr=8-1

There appears to be many brands and they are found at Targets, Walmarts etc.  Just a thought. 

I am glad you are aware of the Ostomy forum and I know if Ivy is posting to you that you are receiving good advice.

Keep us up to date and how you are doing and vent away as much as you need.

Healing prayers headed your way.

Kitt

 

Posted 1/29/2012 4:06 PM (GMT 0)
I am sorry that the medicatons are not helping you to rest...of course I understand, they would probably have to hit me with a horse tranquilizer!

You have been through a huge ordeal. It is perfectly normal for you to have the 'what will happen now?' questions swirling in your head. This is a life changing situation, and anyone would...add that to feeling anxious, and it is a lot to deal with at once.

Stay focused in the present. If the information the doctors and nurses are giving you is too much at the moment, explain that. You are the patient, and therfore the customer...you can call the shots. If you need them to repeat things again at a later time, then that it their job/obligation/duty to you...don't feel guilty, and don't let yourself get overwhelmed.

The thing of the future and what will happen will take care of themselves in time. Yes, it will all be a big adjustment, but for now, you just need to get better and rest. Try to focus on that.

We are here cheering you on! Most of us may have never have had this kind of surgery, but we understand the anxiety and fear, and we are virtually holding your hand through this right now.

Things are going to be okay. Rest and recover as much as you can.

S.C.
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