Anxiety vent thread.

I am new to this forum but I like the idea of a venting thread.
So for starters my name is Allie. Hello everyone!

Today was a good day to begin with. I woke up and actually felt normal! The best I have felt in days fell asleep last night in a nice heated blanket :). BTW New York weather is really stinking right about now.

Decided to go out to dinner and boom! Right when I get my food I feel my anxiety trying to creep up on me. For what reason I do not know ?? I was having a good time laughing, enjoying the company of my boyfriend, having great food and happy to be out regardless of the gloomy rainy day.

Why does this happen when I least expect it to. Anxiety you and I will never be friends. You are rude. You come uninvited and surly unwelcome. Why can I not be like normal 20 year old enjoying the prime of my life instead of worrying so much. I said to myself today that I am strong and will overcome this!! - end rant

I just joined this site today and I already feel better, Seeing that I am not alone and the the feelings I get is something that others can relate with...

My message to my Anxiety:
Hate is not a word that is a loud to be used in my family and I was raised to never use that word but ANXIETY I HATE YOU.. I really do, you have ruined some years that I will never get back like watching my 1 year old grow up because I was stuck on the couch for a year.. You ruined my career that would have took me and my family to new heights, and you have made me end friendships because I just can't do what others can.. I hate you..

Though you will not control me forever, I will conqure you and I will be Normal again whether you like it or not :-p, My life will not revolve around you nor will you tell me what I can and can't do anymore. You have wasted enough of my time and I am DONE with you..

Sincerly
Some one who hates you..

I think I shall go throw some paper plate.. Thanks for the idea !

Welcome missmomma and thanks for posting.

Can I ask you, though, what caused you to be stuck on the couch for a year? I only ask cause I can relate. I was too for a while. Just stuck on the couch either because of feeling sick, feeling depressed, not eating and feeling weak. All I could do was watch tv(which did bring me some comfort, I'd watch travel shows and dream one day of traveling somewhere again). My neck got messed up though from my time on the couch with my head propped up on my pillow.

I feel my anxiety has also ruined things in my life but I'm determined to take my life back. I'm not sure how to do that, just trying any old thing. What are you trying that will help you? Just looking for ideas.

Thanks.

Fling those paper plates my friends.  It beats picking up broken dishes and having to spend money for new dishs.  If your careful not to throw those plates into the dirt you can recycle them for your next picinic . 

Welcome to the greatest place to vent on the Web !

Kitt 

Good vent and you got out your feelings.  Keep it up !

 

A vent thread. Excellent idea.

I was pretty sick earlier this week. Four really bad days and a couple of pretty "meh" days, but aside from maybe a little weakness plus some residual coughing, I'm fine now. I caught this illness from my mother. She has emphysema so when she got sick I came to take care of her. She is better but nowhere near well, so I've only been home one time in the last two weeks and that was only for 20 minutes. And my grandmother died not too long ago so this weekend is the estate sale, occurring here at my mom's house. Dealing with that sucks. There are also plumbing problems going on. Thankfully this house has an addition with another drain pipe going to the sewer or there wouldn't even be a place to go to the bathroom. And where are those plumbers? They were supposed to be here at 2pm and it's nearly 4:30.

This estate sale is maddening. People come over and are generally nice, but for some reason they seem completely disinterested in some of the nicest stuff. They won't even ask how much it is. So if this stuff doesn't sell, what am I going to do with it? Not even half of it's gone.

But there was this one guy who came over. He was looking at stuff and mumbled "typical blah blah blah". I didn't hear what he said so I asked him to repeat himself. He said "nothing", and then slammed something down on the table. I told him he didn't like it he could leave, then he gave me a bad look and I told him directly to leave. And he wouldn't. Kept milling around. I told him to leave again. Same thing. Then he made a move toward the door to the rest of the house which was shut because nothing back there is for sale and that's when I got mad. I said, "I've told you to leave twice. You're trespassing. Get the F out". And he did but to make sure he didn't throw a rock at my car or something I followed him to the street. At the side of the house when nobody was looking he turned around and sorta bowed up on me and said something I cannot repeat. I laughed and clinched my fists. Then he turned around and split.

Is that not just crazy? Why would a person come into someone's home and act like that? It's not only rude but it's kind of dangerous in Texas where trespassers have few if any rights. Anyway I was kind of shook up afterward. I mean I'm 35 years old and this guy was at least 50. Fighting? Seriously? It was so stupid.

Anxiety is weird like that, you know. While something is going on like this jerk who refused to leave, anxiety doesn't even enter the picture. But the adrenaline sticks with you and maybe 15 minutes later you're ten times as nervous as you were when things were actually going down. It's similar to almost getting into a car wreck. If you're like me you handle it fine, but a few minutes down the road you may have to pull over to collect yourself, and if it was a really close call you may have to wind down for a while. Before anxiety I don't remember things happening quite the same way.

Nice rant SS:)

It is great to remember the positive things that our chanllenges bring out in us!!!

I applaud you for seeing the silver lining, and I hope that you continue to do well...your postitve attitude will certainly factor in your favor:)

S.C.

p.s.while I don't disagree with your ending sentiments...I did have to edit you...we have minor members and those who could be offended...

Hi Katrina

Good to meet you and welcome to the forum you will find great support here so feel free to start your own thread.

Hibee

Hi everyone, I'm new here and I'm almost crying reading through these posts because at last I don't feel so alone. The last six months or so my anxiety has been elevating again and its finally gotten too much to handle.
Recently I've had physical problems ... severe ibs, fatigue and poor immune response ... all come about thanks to years of anorexia nervosa ( firmly based in my anxiety disorder, not eating was how I coped with my fears no one seemed to get, last eight months I've finally stabilized and made improvements, yay!)
However because I've been so unwell and so completely fatigued I haven't been able to go to uni or work. I've postponed uni (got three weeks to decide whether to continue this semester or postpone or reduce work load) but I need to work to live! I hate anxiety so much. It rules my life and my body. It destroys me. I want it gone do badly! I'm sick of feeling sick.

Anxiety this is not the time or place please vacate the building before I kick you out. You will never get a good response from me so why bother pestering me?? Anxiety you are the weakest link goodbye.