Sick of this..

I hate the symptoms that accompany anxiety. Today for example, I feel fatigued and just generally really weak and tired. This is making my health anxiety go crazy. I want to go to the doctor for reassurance, but I feel like I'm being annoying because it will only be a matter of time before I think something new is wrong and go back anyway. Other days I feel dizzy, like I'm not getting enough oxygen, blurry vision, headaches, numbness/tingling, nausea, and any number of random things. I KNOW that this is all from anxiety, but I can't get these irrational thoughts to stop, and sometimes they overpower me :/

I hate leaving my house because I am worried about something happening, like fainting or getting sick. I don't want to embarrass myself. I hate it when things are out of my control.. I wish I could just let that go because it's so hard to live with. Sorry this is just a big rant. I can just tell that things are getting bad again and I don't know how to stop it :/ all this stress is probably from starting school again after taking a semester off.. I really hate going there, it's just a huge trigger for me. Nowadays people don't really have a choice of not going though.. Even basic jobs usually won't hire without at least an associates :(

Hi! I completely understand where you're coming from. I think it would be worth a trip to the doctor to rule out anything. That way you can focus on getting yourself where you need to be mentally.

about 6 months ago, I was at my lowest point...very similar to where you feel you're at now. I DESPERATELY wanted to get better. I went to my doctor, had a physical, ruled out anything physical. I knew it was anxiety and depression. My next step was therapy. I've been going since January. There are weeks where it helps tremendously, and weeks where I think it wasn't that great, but I always leave knowing I did something positive toward my recovery.

Then, I went to the psychiatrist. He put me on zoloft(I had previously been on effexor). He said it will most likely work, but to hang in there,because it'll take a while. He was right. It took about 4 weeks...but I feel AMAZING. I'm able to work, go in public, spend time with people, etc, with little anxiety. That's not to say I don't have anxiety at all anymore--I do--especially when driving long distances (which I do five days a week for work). But it's MUCH better.

I've also starts reading From Panic to Power by Lucinda Bassett, which is a book that a lot of people who suffer from panic and anxiety have recommended. So far, it's been a great tool with lots of useful information.

In other words, it's taken work on my part, and trusting in God that He will help me. It's all working, and I'm so thankful.

Take recovery one step at a time. You'll get there. Best wishes!!