Sorry i've been MIA for a few days.....trouble at home

Hey gals & guys,

Sorry I have been MIA for a few days, but I have some really stressful events going on at home right now. My daughter just moved back home for a while with my five year old grand-daughter. So things here have been a bit hectic to say the least.

She came to me last Saturday, brokedown into hysterics, sobbing, and hyperventilating, telling me she is having an issue with addiction to percocet, so me and my hubby thought it was best for her to move home for a while to get her away from the people and places that were easily accessable for her to get them. It has been a real shock to be honest, thinking that this was going on for at least a year steady, and she finally came to me for help. Heartbreaking to say the least, thinking that this happened to my own child.

I'm not a stranger to addiction by any means, my ex is an addict that I lived with for 8 years, and so was my brother, but he went to rehab and has been clean for many years. It can really tear a family apart if you let it.  

She is in the proccess of detoxing now, which is VERY hard for me to watch, as her mom. She has been having crying fits where I literally have to pick her up off the floor and cradle her like a baby, rub her head, and tell her it's going to be alright, that me and daddy are here to help her through it. She's vomitting and having diarrhea, and is extremely irritable and anxious, she also has RLS at night when trying to sleep. I have given her a half of a xanax on a 3 occasions to help calm her down, I know..... not the best thing, but I was told that sometimes a benzo here and there would help a bit with recovery. I told her I will NOT give her any more. She has to take 2 Benadryl at night to help her sleep. I will not give her an addicting pill to overcome an addiction to another pill, and that she HAS TO do this on her own and suffer through the sickness, in order to hopefully make her see what she will be go through if she does it again.  

I'm also basically taking care of my grand-daughter while mommy is "sick". This has been a HUGE stressor for me, but i'm finding that I am able to handle it quite well, I think the meds have kicked in pretty well.  On the bright side, I do get to see her on a daily basis, which I was only seeing her about two or three times a month.  

Anyway, thanks for letting me vent and get that out....

Many ((hugs)) Fox

Thank you SC, the prayers are much appreciated.

I have been trying to tell her that I think it's best if she does go to inpatient rehab, but she keeps telling me that she doesn't want to leave my grand-daughter.

I, on the other hand, told her that I would keep her with me, and bring her to visit, that I really think she needs it, and if she doesn't stop, she will be leaving her daughter for good. I'm trying to hold it together for her and Madison (my grand-daughter), I don't want her to know that mommy is "sick" from drugs. She's too young to know anything like that.

It's particularly rough at the moment, because it was right before my "friend" that all of this came out (the night before Easter!), and i've been a bit more anxious, like I always get at that time of the month. Thank God I got it today, hopefully it'll start easing up within a day or two.

She has been doing pretty good the last two days, broke down a bit last night, but nothing major. I think this environment is good for her, and where I live now, it's like a retreat. We're pretty much out in the middle of nowhere, with nothing but nature surrounding us, and about 40 minutes from where she was living. It is giving her plenty of time to reflect on her life and what she does, and does not want in it.

I pray to God that she finds the strength to make it through this, and she knows that i'm here for her, no matter how bad it gets, to help her through it.

((HUGS)) Fox

Oh yeah! She does want to go to individual counseling for it. I thought you were talking about inpatient care.

She has to go to the County Assistance office to see if she can get medical assistance because she has no insurance through her work.

I'll keep you posted on how she's coming along, don't worry. And thanks again for being here for me SC, you and Kitt always seem to come through just when I need the encouragement and support.

((Hugs)) Fox

Hi Fox! Sorry to hear about what's going on. It has to be heartbreaking. Just letting you know you and your family are in my prayers!