Good Morning Friends,Just an update - I had one rough week but hey, here it is Sunday and I am still moving forward.
Monday, my daughter backed out of our planned vacation to Las Vegas on June 3 - We were going to celebrate my granddaughter's 21st birthday. I am accepting that this is another bump in the road but it was hard to accept the dream I had for 3 years came crashing down.
My therapist did me more harm then good on Tuesday so I made the decision to not see this person anymore and will talk with my Pdoc on May 7th to see where to go from here re counseling.
Wednesday, my PCP sent a message that my LDL Cholesterol had not budge since August when it was first noted to be in the high range. So now another new med - and really strict diet to get the level under control. My oldest sister died of a massive heart attack as she did not survive the open heart surgery. I know I let a bit of what if thinking in so I am trying to push that back down.
Thursday started new cholesterol med and at the same time increased my dose of Effexor to the goal of 150mg - the meds made me very tired and then I feel bad because I hate feeling so useless. I know - more stinkin' thinkin' 
Now for the good in the week, I am still here and pushing forward. I talked to some wonderful friends who are all "online" to support me. Yesterday my son came over to visit and that made me very happy. My awesome hubby is always my go to person and he has even learned that sometimes just sitting with me while I let out the tears is all I need.
And of course my best friend, my wonderful dog, is always close by.
Coming here talking with all of you is a huge support for me - so I keep on moving toward the light. I know there are many sunny days ahead.
Gentle Hugs to all,
Kitt